Be positive

"Be positive", people always say that. I do not really know what pople ment when they say.
I usually try to be pretend to be positive.This is the only thing I can do.
I meant I can ignore what is not good and try to see good aspect of things and concentrate what I can do. But actually I can see bad aspects as well.
During I pretend, sometimes things go well and sometimes does not
inspite of my effort.
In that case, I can not pretend more and ignore what is not good.
Theseday my life is like that.
My PC was broken and my mobile phone was broken and the fata of the assignemnt was broken and chair inmy room was broken and my headphone was broken.
The Next is me?
Well, I am doing the last assifnment of my course. Last ! Last !

My lovely mobile phone

Guess what has happened to my lovely mobile phone.
Following to the destruction of the PC, my mobile phone was broken.
When I wake up morning, it was dead.
I have no idea what was wrong.

I am from Japan and people expect me to have high tech mobile phone which I do not.
Japanese mobile phone system is different from other countries so we can not use our mobile phone out of Japan. When I saw some people using mobile phone which is from their own country, I was so surprised. So international!!
Anyway, Japanese people usually have to buy mobile phone when they are out of Japan.
So do not expect Japanese to have a cool mobile phone!!

Now, I am a kid of lost my PC and also mobile phone.
I am not sure I can survive through this no-communication-device life.
E-mail me when you need to call me!!

Merry me!

I might be mad because I am reading books whole days recently without communicating anyone. It is not good for mental health.
I think I need to merry to have conversation.
Will you merry me?
If you merry me, I will guarantee that your life would be twenty times more enjoyable (but five times harder than average. sorry for that.)
I will do my best to make you happy. How is it?
Think about it.

decision

"What is the best decision you have made?"
"What is the worst decision you have made?"
"What can you do to develop your decision making?"
Aren't they interesting?
These days I am reading decision making books and they are really
exciting.
Definitely let me know your decisions.
My best decision is “coming to London” because I wanted. Of course I lost some things but I do not mind because it was not what I really wanted even if they are valuable in the common sense, for me it was not so important.
My worst decision is the fact that I had not made for long time to come to London.
I mean I wanted to come to London but I did not made decision to come here long time. I do not know why I did not. Maybe I did not enough money? I did not want
What I have in Japan?

Friends

I bought friends. Yes, people can buy friends by money, you know.
It is the set of DVDs of American TV drama “Friends”. Actually for me it is really friends because these DVDs make me cheer up efficiently always.

Recently

Recently, my life is just reading books.
I read book whole day. My reading speed is still slow so even I read whole day, the amount of my reading is not big. That makes me irritated because many books to read are there. I made some plan to make sure I can finish those reading until the end of the next month but obviously my plan is out of my capacity. I always make such a plan in studying because I want to finish soon. But usually I can not keep my plan and feel I am so stupid.
I experienced more than million times and I experience much enough to plan more sensible way.
I do not know if I can go through them but I am just reading.
Concentrating on reading is not bad but, today,
I only talked with two people. One is the woman at the counter in the library. I said to her “I would like to return this book.” Second person is the man who was repairing the pedestrian road and let me go through and I said to him “Cheers”.
Maybe I should talk to myself in the mirror to add one more person.
I think this environment is not so good to me. If I stay in this situation log time, I will be mad.
I think I should go out and be more socialized but I need to read books. I think I need to develop the way to be socialized which does not take time.
Guess my new developed a way. I think I am great. Actually it is not respected way so I do not tell you.

My lovely PC

I broke my lovely PC yesterday completely.
I can not imagine life without it!!!!!!
I telephoned the SONY custemer centre in Japan but they said I need to bring my pc to be repaired in Japan and there is no way to fix by miself.

Well, untill it will be fixed I have to live without it and I do not know when it is fixed because I do not decide when next I go back to Japan.
I do not want to buy a new one because my PC is the one I have strong affection to. I do not cheat on it!!

About Love

Some of my friends fallen love with someone even if they do not know he/she and they has never spoken to he/she.
That phenomenon looks so mysterious to me.
I usually fell love with a person I had a good conversation and that experience makes me feel that I want to talk that person again.
Conversation is like tennis. I simply love a guy who returns a boll in an interesting way and make me laugh. If he also happy to talk with me, I am more than happy.
Of course I like beautiful boys.
But as long as the person I like is not stinky or something, I am happy with him because I like him.
Have you ever fallen love with someone with their appearance?

Wisdom

I am not talking about some thing knowledge. I am talking about teeth.
Yesterday, my wisdom hurt much like a hell.
My dentist in Japan said to me that when wisdom hurt even dentists can not do anything because wisdom should be taken care of when it does not hurt and we need to wait.
I just drink some painkillers but still it was painful.

Before I came to London, I asked my dentist to pull my wisdoms but he said I only need to pull one wisdom. I think I will complain to him someday because it is so painful. I can study properly.
Are you reading? My dentist, Mr.Y! Maybe not.
Again, it is really hurt.

Mean girl

If you are my close friend, you know that I tend to be mean to Japanese boys in a horrible way even if it is my first time to meet them because they remind me some Japanese boys’ character.
Today, I was mean to a Japanese boy who I did not know before.

Actually I do not want to be a mean girl, never ever. You should know that nobody want to be mean.
The day when I am mean, I would cry in my room after that seriously. It is getting better but still I am struggling with it. God help me, I am screaming in my mind.

In my Japanese culture, people do not express their opinion much because we believe that if we express our opinion we have to take whole responsibility of the issue.
We are just careful. Expressing the opinion could mean taking a risk.
We do not comment on what we are not ready to take responsibility. Wise Japanese people might try to avoid the chance to take responsibility as much as possible and do not express their opinion.
Sometimes I am angry with this attitude because it makes me really sad.
My close male friends did not help me when I was threatened and took money by some boys, my friends are just ignored although they are gentle and worried me much.
Why were you just watching? Maybe I am not wise like Japanese boys and I do not need to be wise. I like Japanese boys and that is why I have struggled to understand and that makes me really sad.
This is the reason I am mean sometimes.
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I am so great.

You might laugh.
When I write an essay, I feel I am so great and what I am writing is fairly interesting. In many cases it turns out that my essays need to more effort or fine structure to be great. Actually mines are basically horrible.
In my academic carer in Japan, basically I have not required to write essays usually fill-in examinations. I am so not used to writing essay and still need to practice.
Anyway I am happy and that is important.

In the Introduction of English writing, what is most important things are told such as what the writer want or what aimed to.
In Japanese writing, it should be the end. Japanese people can be shocked if what people want is told at the very first because it is too direct and straight.
In Japanese writing system, people can not see what is told until the end.

Salsa club

I am interested in salsa but it is difficult to find a friend who also interested in.
So I went to Salsa club in Soho on my own two month ago. I am confessing because it is two month ago and old enough not to be blamed.
I know I should not have done that so I tried to have my company but I could not.
If I can not fined, do I have to give up go there for good? I do not like that.
Moreover I was depressed about my school desperately and need to do something.
Even in Japan, I do not go out on my own especially at the centre of the city. So actually I was bit nerves when I left home.
But it turned out quite enjoyable.
I am just beginner of salsa and some people danced with me in a teaching way.
Especially, I liked the way a black French boy danced with me.
He looks under twenty years old and with a French woman she looks his mothers age but I think she is not his mother. I do not know they are a couple or not but they danced well and looked wicked!
Of course, it is not perfect world. There were some unpleasant men who tried to pick me up or touched me too sexually because I am alone and they might misunderstand me. But it is small and I can ignore and forget.
Basically people treated me sensibly even if I was on my own.
And after two am of closing time of salsa club, I went to the café Italiano it is just opposite of the salsa club. I talked with some Australian traveller until morning about my school.
I think if I go out at mid night on my own in Tokyo, I would not have an enjoyable night because we do not talked to strangers. I would be just bored.

Super market.

I live in a mountain in London. When I say that usually people wonder if London has mountains or not. Any way I live in a mountain in a London.
Mountain is the place where I need to take bus to go supermarkets and there are not shops.
I need to go to supermarkets to survive but at the same time I need to finish essay.
Yesterday, I was in the library whole day and only six hundred letter progress in my essay. Writing essay is a bit hard for me although I like. In my academic life, I just did many fill in examination and almost no need to write essays.
I believe writing essay is one of the reasons I am here in London because I can not do this in Japan. Still I need to go to supermarkets.

What should not be a fake

I believe something should not be a fake, ever never although some fakes I love.
I like fake far because it is cheap and sometimes washable. I like fake animals because I do not need to take care of them.
I like chemical taste drinks because I am familiar with their taste.
But even for me still there is something which always should be true. Guess!!

Japanese Gray

My mother said , gray is the most beautiful colour in the world with some reason.

Since, I was a child I have talked with this topic since I was a little.
She said that sometime I am too honest and make things too clear, black and white.

Japanese people are famous for the story that they can not say “NO”. It is true, we can not. We do not like to reject and hurt people and we can not do that.
What we can do is to avoid the clear answer to the question. Japanese people can guess the answer “NO” if he/she can not get the answer in spite of so a couple of asking.
Actually, there is no point to avoid the answer, because still the answer is “NO” in those cases and makes any differences.

If you still continue to ask, you would get angry from the person. Maybe he/she said that you should guess without letting he/she say the answer clearly.

Western people might see difficulty to understand this custom but this is the beauty of
Japan, I believe strongly.
I can appreciate the beauty of gray but still I am a bit too curious to give up asking the reason or discussing with people.

Today I remember Japanese gray because one of my classmate said that I am a typical quiet and kind Japanese girl, by the say, which I am not but I want.

Moving out

It is not me although I also have a pane to move to a new place before long.
One of my flat mates is MBA student and he moved to a new place. His wife and children is to move to London so he decided to fine a new place. He was my good drinking friend, so I am going to miss him.
His new place is on the Themes and it is said so nice. So we went there to see how nice it is with other MBAs.
I was new and beautiful flat which smell chemical. I believe when his family come, the smell is gone away.
He is from UAE and working for Navy.
I think it is strange because I heard before the reason he is doing MBA is he wants to learn business to have his own business in the future. Navy of his country is paying for that MBA and that is for his own profit??
UAE is so powerful wealthy nation, I think.
After I left Japan, I have learnt many things. This is one of the big three.
1. UAE
When I am in Japan, I did not know that because there are not many UAE people there.
Moreover I believed the GNP&GDP data as numbers showing the wealthy of each country. I never fined UAE countries’ name on the top list of GNP&GDP. This is just a trick, I guess.
I really want to visit and see some of UAE countries where there are enough wealthy to avoid beggars and homeless. What is going on there? People still keep the motivation for work?
2. Japan is a part of America
I found out Japan is a part of America soon after I came to London. British media showed me different points of views as a Europe country. I can not say in detail but I just feel that.
3. So many Muslims in the world
In Japan, Muslims are hardly seen. I never talked with them much because they are not found in Japan. After I came to London, I realized that so big numbers of them are in the world. I also have some close Muslim friends.

You can see how I am innocent and stupid. But it is true that I did not know that.
What is most important for me is to satisfy my curiosity to the world and I am more than satisfied.

My best friend

I am not lesbian but she is my special.
Here I am not going to tell why she is special but she is my special person with some reasons.
Yesterday I could not sleep because of her.
We sometimes chat on the IP telephone. Usually not important issues are discussed.
She said I need to do something special at her wedding such as making bouquets or singing a song. She has taken making bouquets for long time and now she can but I can not.
I can sing if she wants but I am so bad at singing in the way I can be proud of.
I did not tell her but I want to make wedding cake. I do not know how to make but I think I can learn.
It is too big event, I am anxious thinking if I can do that or not and this is the reason of my sleepless night although she does not have any plan to marry so far.

Too honest man

When I talked with my MBA students, I really enjoy conversation with them because they are so mature and interesting. Their average age is thirty six.
When we had dinner altogether, I asked one MBA student if he has ever cheated on her wife or not. I was just kidding.
He said he did not want to answer.
Suddenly I realized that his reply let me know the answer.
I guess usually man says “no” when he has never cheated on his wife or tells some jokes. So his answer was simply “yes”.
I think he is not good at telling a lie and his wife knows the truth.
At the same time, I see the one reason why I am not popular among boys.
The world is not so bad place! Tomoko! Cheer up!
I know some men are like that but some are not like that.

My perfect Sunday

I sometimes attend mass in the morning in my town. It is so beautiful old church and mass is nice.
I am not Christian but I really like mass.
I do not understand but it is beautiful and warm.
Not many people are there usually and I can see old people or women with children there.
Today, I attend mass and after that I went to the Water Stone book shop to spend the rest of the morning. This is my perfect Sunday morning! Afternoon, I have to struggle with the essay assignments but I can do that because I spent good morning.
My town is not big but I have some favourite places where I can spend much time without difficulty.

English girls like me!

When I walked in the Town, English high school girls talked to me asking where I got the Louis Vuitton’s padlock on my knapsack. This is my third time to be asked about the Louis Vuitton’s padlock.
Actually, it is just from my Luis Vuitton’s back. My knapsack is Gregory’s one and popular one in Japan, so to identify mine, I put the Luis Vuitton’s padlock.
I answered the girls that it is just from my Vuitton bag which originally has the padlock.
They said my idea is cool. Cheers!
I felt that English girl like me.
I also like you, English girls!!

Indian Fried Rice

My Indian Flat mate said she will be going to teach me Indian Dish every week.
I think it would be great and today is the first day of the lesson.
When I was in Japan, I was taking some lessons at a cooking school after work with my friends. This Indian cooking lessons reminds me those lessons.

We made Indian Friend Rice.
I have eaten some Indian food she made and it is my favourite.

In Japan, fried rice means Chinese fried rice and popular dish but I found out Indian fried rice has big potential to be popular in Japan. I like that more than Indian curry.
It is so nice so I already have a plan to teach this dish to one of my Japanese friends.

These days I was a bit busy and I do not have anything to eat in my cupboard.
Because of this cooking lesson, I ate properly.

My chatting friend

These days I have a good chatting friend in Hungary online.
She is a high school student in Hungary. She is twelve years younger than me!!
I do not know much about her country. To be honest I only know its famous chocolate, GODIVA.
I have only bought as a gift and never eaten by myself because it is so expensive.
Usually I have a small chat with her on weekend before evening or before noon and it is really nice.
She said she will be an actress!
It is so amazing idea, isn’t it?!
I do not have friends in that fiels so I am so curious.
I think she can be famous.

April Fool

I decided to be bold because it is getting warm so I do not need much hair.