Caving

Caving

I went caving with one British guy and two French. Four of us.
Since I am a Japanese, I am a minority in this group.

When I stranded in front of the cave, it was like opening the refrigerator. I can feel the really cold wind.
Except me, we are experienced caving people. I am really new and do not know anything at all. My company really took care of me so well. Thank you very much.

In the cave, I have seen several insects with various shapes. All of them are complete white.

My sister

My sister and I have had a quite difficult relationship for really long time.
We are so different by nature and think quite differently.
She is quite shay and laid back. I am quite outgoing and love to go out and meet people.
She can enjoy staying home even for a year without getting out at all. I can not stay home more than two days I need to get out to breath the outer air.
For long time, she was mean to me every single minutes. That was quite tough thing for me.
Since I felt I had burden every single minutes and I could expect something negative happen every single minute.
I had had really hard years because of her and I continue to get hurt for many years. Every day, I used to kind of wish she would different today! and betrayed again and again. I thought I should not gave up on her and keep the wish.
My parents did not know what to do about this and they just left this problem. My parents did not do anything at all about this. That was hard things to me since it give me the idea that my family do not care about my problem and pain at all who I can expect the care.
So I got hurt double like this.
After she married, she stopped being mean to me since we did not have chance to communicate much. However I can not just forgot what I had such long years and just trust her immediately. She was the person who hurt me such a long years and she does not care about my feeling. I thought that way. So I thought without her apology or something, I can not just built trust on her and I thought she need to work to earn some trust and forgiveness from me.
Should I just give up on her ?
I was thinking such a long years.
Now, I have some idea about her. Why she was so mean to me in that hard way? I really thought about that hard.
Before because of my pain and anger, I could not think about that . I just thought whatever the reason it was so bad of her to be bad to me since i am so nice to her and we are sisters and only sisters in the world.
So I could not really think why she was like that .
However now I think she was having really hard time. My family have other problem and my parents often payed much attention to me since I am so social and talked a lot and bring many people to house. Because of me, she must felt she was left behind. and that was extremely tough thing and she really needed someone who can express love to her.
I started to feel really sorry for her pain.

And I decided to speak to her properly what I think. I wrote to her I am not angry with her anymore and I do not need her apology since I really understand she herself had hard time.
She is quite laid back and have not meet many people in her life. I walk around the world and have met many amazing people and speak to me properly.
So I decided to share my world as much as possible with her.
Before i never take her to my friend place since I thought it would be really embarrassing and not enjoyable to have a sister to be mean in front of my friends.
Now I think I can take her wherever I go. Since she married with two year old daughter, I do not think she can go out much.

So, my sister and I just started to have human relationship.
I recently took her to see my Australian friend ! I invited and she came.
Nice happy ending story, isn't it?!

Over sea Guests

Over sea Guests

The end of the last month, I have two sent of over sea guests.
They stayed at hotel but I mean they are guests to Japan. I made friends with them when I was in other countries and thanks for the internet technology, I kept touch with thanks for the internet technology, I kept touch with them.

One is from London, where my hart belong. What I admire about London is that people really talking to me toward what I said.

They are young new married couple and the husband is my friend initially.
Mostly our relationship was just online but I believe we really develop some trsut friendship.
how?....
I just think he understand my thought or at least some interest in my thought
and really care what I think and feel. If I am sad , I think he would genuinely care.
Most of the people do not care what I think and feel and,
Some people only care only if I have something for them.

I spent one day showing them in Tokyo and I really enjoyed.
They are so cute together. I wish I can find my other half soon.

The other guests are from Australia. Young mother and a toddler.
She was visiting to Japan to buy Japanese books and DVDs for him. When I met her, I brought my sister and her toddler as well.
I thought it nice if I can show nice friends to my sister as well as fun.
My sister and I have a bit difficult relationship for really long time. It will talk about that some other time,
but anyway I wanted to show her to my nice friends.
When I walked in the middle of the Tokyo with two young mothers and toddlers, I felt like I need to keep eyes on everything and use my nerve 200%.
Next day, I slept the whole day..

Tokyo Hacker Space

Tokyo Hacker Space

My Friend, Kameroon　started Tokyo Hacker Space with his friends.
It is really hard to explain what is Tokyo Hacker Space. They lent a house and hang around together and
they do something creative whatever they like. People do not like there though.
It is like a lounge we can relax and do out own work or some project.

People can be a monthly member whenever they feel like.
I am quite busy with other things in my life and in the end, I am member mostly every two month.

At the moment, I do not have any project I am in.
As far as I understand, people do some project like collecting old computers and repair or install some Linux
and donate them to orphan house.
They also plan to teach computer to orphans so that it will help their future.

The website has some Japanese cartoon robot character on it. I think it looks so nerdy.


http://www.tokyohackerspace.org/