Partner meeting

Partner meeting is an annal meeting with partners.
“Partners” are high positions in a companies.
We meet them one by one and they show us the next year's salary.
We do not really discuss but they just show it since my companies are quite Japanese.

This year, I've got the same as last year.
If they reduce my salary, I can not survive. So it is quite equal to reducing.

Last year I have many things at the company....
My performance was not good sadly.
This year they decided to grow me properly and allocate me nice place. I think it is such a warm decision. I really think I should appreciate their decision and work on it.
I always complain about Japanese society and angry about my fate that this society is the only place I can survive.

I think it is all right.
They care about me and did something for me to be comfortable to work.
So I started to learn and work properly.
I said thanks to them for their caring about various things and it was my realy thanks.
Last year, I had rather hard time in a not productive way.
This year I hope I will make much progress.
This is my dream to work properly and enjoy work and support myself and independent.
I think I am closer to that dream than before.
I still need to do lots of things such as study and work.
Because of today's meeting, I feel a bit, ,,, how to say,,,,I feel I need to be good to be here for more years. To be here is not easy.
This is my choice to be this kind of company.
I wanted to grow and I wanted to challenge even if it might be sometimes painful and tiring.
It is nicer than just sitting at boring company and wast my life, I thought.
I just started to work properly.
At my age, isn't it a bit late.
We can not choose life.