Tomoko's Blog

Pancake with Salmon

2010-11-27T07:08:00.001-08:00

Seriously, how do you think?

Autumn Leaves

2010-11-27T06:47:00.000-08:00

Beautiful, isn't it?!
Here in Japan, we appreciate the autumn leaves.
I went to Izu and enjoy the tress there.

I have been doing hiking for a past few years.
I am belonging to a outdoor club and have some hiking things like sleeping bag and tents and shoes.

After the hiking, I can have red cheeks and feel really good.
Mentally I can feel really nice as well.

dung beetle

2010-11-27T06:38:00.000-08:00

I found a dung beetle in Tokyo.
Actually he was cute.

Japanese cakes

2010-11-27T06:35:00.000-08:00

2010-11-27T06:30:00.000-08:00

I think cakes in Japan is amazing.
Sometimes I wonder cakes in France can be better?
When I was there, I should have tried.

"why do you think pepole don't like talking to you?"

2010-11-27T05:54:00.000-08:00

why do you think pepole don't like talking to you?

This is a question from my friend who lives far away.
I thinks this question is really core to who I am. So I decided to write here.

I have been suffered from a feeling of people around me do not really care how I feel and think.
This feeling still makes a hole in my hart and might make my life harder than it should be.

Since I was a child, I have a a bit difficult relationship with my sis.
She was really mean to me every single minutes and said mean things every time I saw her.
I know why she was like that now.
To her eyes, I had everything, love from family and friend and good score at school and everything.
She had really hard time as well. However I still wonder sometime, if she ever imagine how I felt from what she behaved.
Whatever she did to me, I hope she would be different tomorrow and continue to be nice to her.
So for her, I am a person who should be nice and do not feel anything whatever she does.
I want to say to sis, I am still human and feel pain.

My parents did not help me from this problems.
They did not know what to do with it and forced me to just take it.
I would have been better if they ever tired to something to sort out even if it was not successful.
For them, I am a tough girl. However it does not mean I do not feel pain.

My Ex almost left me alone on Christmas eve.
His ex-girlfriend was so called "best friend" and wanted to have exclusive dinner with him.
She always excluded me.
and he was not find it offensive and even support that exclusive dinner.
I expect him to protect me from that kind of rude people than work with that kind of people.
She had her boy friend but he was also going somewhere else.
For some people, Christmas eve was not important. However it was not the case for me.
My Christmas wish was to have nice dinner with friends and him.
He said I was a tough girl and I would find some friend to go out. and he did not care what I want to Christmas.

Now I realized people think I am tough and ok and that is why they do not care what I feel and think.
I feel sad about this.
I might behave tough but I am quite fragile in real.
Even if I am tough, I want people around me care what I feel and think, because I do care what they feel and think.

Club at Night

2010-11-27T05:27:00.000-08:00

In Tokyo, there is an area called "Roppngi". This is real night area.
I do not know much about this area and did not much chance to go clubs there.
I like music and dance but simply I did not have friends who likes dances especially at that kind of night area.

Last Thursday, my new friend plan to go night club at Roppngi.
I felt so stress from many things in life and I thought it was a great chance to release the stress.
I can dance and sweat and feel nice, right?!
We were four girls and the club was empty at 8 pm. It is weekday, no wonder and this was what we wanted.
Until the last train we can dance!
The last train would be around 11:30 so I decided to dance as much as for this two and half hours.
when we entered there there are almost no one there but gradually people were coming and in the end it was so crowded.

I was amazed by three things there.
1. Guys are like mosquito.
We were four girls and the place is Roppongi, where is infamous meat market.

2. Some girls, their body was composed of boobs and bums.
I have seen three girls they had enormous boobs. Their tops were so small and thier boobs were almost falling out.
They wear really shirt skirt and sit high chair so
I can see their underwear.
I think they are so unique and wanted to take picture with them.
I asked them saying "I think you are so pretty and I want to take picture with you. Do you mind? "
I was saying polite but actually I felt more like I want to take a picture of some Characters.
They said they felt shy.
Some minutes later , some guys were holing their boobs in the public and girls looks ok with it.

3. There are so many different people and it was almost like and Human Museum.
I can see some guys who were like my grandpa age.
I do not know what he is doing.
I can see so different races and ages and sex.

When I was in London, going to clubs was my favorite.
I have learned how nice club can be at that time.

This night I enjoy music and dancing. I felt quite nice after two hours dancing.
But I have to admit, I miss something.

I am just on my period

2010-11-09T00:50:00.001-08:00

If you are nice, if you are right, things would work well?
No, world is not like that .
If you are nice, people would take advantage of you, and if you are right, it is not the matter since rightness would be veried
depend on the view and what is whatter is powerbalance.

I felt this way.　
Maybe I am just on my period.
Then what I can be like? I have no idea.

Halloween

2010-10-12T23:54:00.000-07:00

Halloween costume idea

Halloween is coming. I think it is a bit wast of money to buy a expensive costume.
And I goggle what I can do.
Here is the idea.
I might be a Sleep Walker Costume
or, I am thinking of a small devil.

maybe a small devil think people might think I am too lazy if I just wear pajyama and saying sleep walker costume.

Tic Tac Toe Board Costume-
Ｙｏｕ　wear black T-shirt. You draw the flame of Tic Tac Toe with white adhesive tape.
Then draw ○×.

Sleep Walker Costume-
You wear your pajyama with wearing curlers on your head.
You can bring your teddy bear.

"BOX"Costume-
You wear brawn clothes. You wear cardboard box at your arms and legs and head.

Chalkboard Costume
You wear green clothes. and attach you halkboard eraser.
You might want to wear a baseball cap,

small devil
You wear black clothes and attache a tail. Wear hairband with ears.

Le Creuset Bean Pot

2010-10-11T22:17:00.002-07:00

Le Creuset Bean Pot　

In my life, I have fallen in love with some products.
Probably not that many but some.
This is one of them.
It is a kind of soup bowl made from stone and produced by a cmapny called Le Creuset .
this is a palm size and so cute.
You can see the picture.
How cute is that !!

Actually it is really hard to get this one if you are out of Europe.
I do not know why but many shops do not sell this designe out of Europe.
My ex-boyfriend got two bowls as a prent for me one day.
When we were together, we used together. They are great soup bowl and keep soup warm really long.
After we broke up, he did not give me that soup bowl saying he loves that bowls.

Who pay??

2010-10-11T22:17:00.001-07:00

If you go out with someone, do you think who pay?
Here in Japan, men do not really pay. Of course, some men pay but not all and commonly believed men do not need to pay for a girl.
I am a girl.
I think people basically should pay for what they eat and drink. and if the man want to pay for me, I would appriciate but I do not expect him to pay.
Dinner at restaurant is quite expensive therefore expecting a man to pay the whole is to much burden, I think.

When I talk about this with British male friend, he said my idea is such a starange idea and my standerd is too low.
He even said I should have higher standerd.
I felt a bit sad about this.
I think I can respect the custome. I mean if Japanese guy do going dutch, it is fine since it is thier custome.
But if western guy doing dutch, defenetly, I am not treated well.
In my life, I have been dated out with western guy in Tokyo and mostly we did going dutch.
Why it is like that??
I was not important for them? I was not pretty enough??

From now on, do you think I should guy to pay for my meal?
Well.....
I would not do that. Since I feel bad if a guy do not pay so I think I should just expect me to pay for myself.
That all.

a boy in MacDonald

2010-10-11T22:05:00.001-07:00

Ｉ　ｗｅｎｔ　ｔｏ　Ｍａｃｄｏｎａｌｄ　ｗｉｔｈ　ｍｙ　sister and her daughter the last Sunday.
Every two weeks, they provide a new seson menue and I wanted to try this seson manue "Cheese fondue".

"Cheese fondue" was ok but not that impressive. I thought I can enjoy chees more but the cheese was more think liquid than
I imagines. And when we fish the early lunch, I have notice a little boy alone eating a cheese burger with a cup of tap water.
Probably he is under ten year old.
Here in Japan, we can buy a cheese burger around less than $1. Is it same in other countries?
The set meal can be a bit pricey but if we purchase just a burger, it is really cheap.
I do not know about the boy at all and we did not talk to him since we were really just leaving.
Maybe even if we had noticed before, we should not talked to him since we might spoil his relaxing time.
However I just imagine, it must be so lonely feeling to eat a burger alone in the Sunday branch time.

Caving

2010-06-22T02:18:00.001-07:00

Caving

I went caving with one British guy and two French. Four of us.
Since I am a Japanese, I am a minority in this group.

When I stranded in front of the cave, it was like opening the refrigerator. I can feel the really cold wind.
Except me, we are experienced caving people. I am really new and do not know anything at all. My company really took care of me so well. Thank you very much.

In the cave, I have seen several insects with various shapes. All of them are complete white.

My sister

2010-06-18T17:02:00.001-07:00

My sister and I have had a quite difficult relationship for really long time.
We are so different by nature and think quite differently.
She is quite shay and laid back. I am quite outgoing and love to go out and meet people.
She can enjoy staying home even for a year without getting out at all. I can not stay home more than two days I need to get out to breath the outer air.
For long time, she was mean to me every single minutes. That was quite tough thing for me.
Since I felt I had burden every single minutes and I could expect something negative happen every single minute.
I had had really hard years because of her and I continue to get hurt for many years. Every day, I used to kind of wish she would different today! and betrayed again and again. I thought I should not gave up on her and keep the wish.
My parents did not know what to do about this and they just left this problem. My parents did not do anything at all about this. That was hard things to me since it give me the idea that my family do not care about my problem and pain at all who I can expect the care.
So I got hurt double like this.
After she married, she stopped being mean to me since we did not have chance to communicate much. However I can not just forgot what I had such long years and just trust her immediately. She was the person who hurt me such a long years and she does not care about my feeling. I thought that way. So I thought without her apology or something, I can not just built trust on her and I thought she need to work to earn some trust and forgiveness from me.
Should I just give up on her ?
I was thinking such a long years.
Now, I have some idea about her. Why she was so mean to me in that hard way? I really thought about that hard.
Before because of my pain and anger, I could not think about that . I just thought whatever the reason it was so bad of her to be bad to me since i am so nice to her and we are sisters and only sisters in the world.
So I could not really think why she was like that .
However now I think she was having really hard time. My family have other problem and my parents often payed much attention to me since I am so social and talked a lot and bring many people to house. Because of me, she must felt she was left behind. and that was extremely tough thing and she really needed someone who can express love to her.
I started to feel really sorry for her pain.

And I decided to speak to her properly what I think. I wrote to her I am not angry with her anymore and I do not need her apology since I really understand she herself had hard time.
She is quite laid back and have not meet many people in her life. I walk around the world and have met many amazing people and speak to me properly.
So I decided to share my world as much as possible with her.
Before i never take her to my friend place since I thought it would be really embarrassing and not enjoyable to have a sister to be mean in front of my friends.
Now I think I can take her wherever I go. Since she married with two year old daughter, I do not think she can go out much.

So, my sister and I just started to have human relationship.
I recently took her to see my Australian friend ! I invited and she came.
Nice happy ending story, isn't it?!

Over sea Guests

2010-06-15T01:53:00.000-07:00

Over sea Guests

The end of the last month, I have two sent of over sea guests.
They stayed at hotel but I mean they are guests to Japan. I made friends with them when I was in other countries and thanks for the internet technology, I kept touch with thanks for the internet technology, I kept touch with them.

One is from London, where my hart belong. What I admire about London is that people really talking to me toward what I said.

They are young new married couple and the husband is my friend initially.
Mostly our relationship was just online but I believe we really develop some trsut friendship.
how?....
I just think he understand my thought or at least some interest in my thought
and really care what I think and feel. If I am sad , I think he would genuinely care.
Most of the people do not care what I think and feel and,
Some people only care only if I have something for them.

I spent one day showing them in Tokyo and I really enjoyed.
They are so cute together. I wish I can find my other half soon.

The other guests are from Australia. Young mother and a toddler.
She was visiting to Japan to buy Japanese books and DVDs for him. When I met her, I brought my sister and her toddler as well.
I thought it nice if I can show nice friends to my sister as well as fun.
My sister and I have a bit difficult relationship for really long time. It will talk about that some other time,
but anyway I wanted to show her to my nice friends.
When I walked in the middle of the Tokyo with two young mothers and toddlers, I felt like I need to keep eyes on everything and use my nerve 200%.
Next day, I slept the whole day..

Tokyo Hacker Space

2010-06-15T01:19:00.000-07:00

Tokyo Hacker Space

My Friend, Kameroon　started Tokyo Hacker Space with his friends.
It is really hard to explain what is Tokyo Hacker Space. They lent a house and hang around together and
they do something creative whatever they like. People do not like there though.
It is like a lounge we can relax and do out own work or some project.

People can be a monthly member whenever they feel like.
I am quite busy with other things in my life and in the end, I am member mostly every two month.

At the moment, I do not have any project I am in.
As far as I understand, people do some project like collecting old computers and repair or install some Linux
and donate them to orphan house.
They also plan to teach computer to orphans so that it will help their future.

The website has some Japanese cartoon robot character on it. I think it looks so nerdy.

http://www.tokyohackerspace.org/

just a joke

2009-08-10T00:18:00.000-07:00

My neighbor displays interesting object on his/her window. Is this express he is a gay and looking for someone? or Is this a kind of art? or just a joke.

Creating a E-shop

2009-08-09T19:31:00.000-07:00

Creating a E-shop

I am making an E-shop. Then, I decided to use some company proving an E-shop infrastracture.
I consult friends who have his own E-shop and he recommed me one company called “ground site”.
http://www.siteground.com/

When I saw this company website, they were offering a month trial for USD$1. So I started to make an E-shop. I think it was not that easy as I thought. Probably for the person who have done once might find not that hard thought.
I think I can do what I have done so far in one minutes which I have developed in several day.
I am still working on it.

What I am going to sell here.
I think it does not matter as far as I do not invest big money and lose. At the beginning, it is enough if I can get used to E-shop.
However I still have to sell something.
I am thinking to sell Japanese vintage fabric. Japanese vintage fabric is quite popular as a craft material. People want to have a small cut for small money. I have a lot of Japanese Vintage Clothes which nobody wear anymore in my family house. I can cut into a small piece and sell for a while.
I think small piece would be 30cmx30cm.

Japanese fabric is a bit strange comodidty. If you want to buy a brand new one, it would be really expensive. My Japanese clothes for my 20 years celebration was 5.000 pounds. However if I sell to it to a seccond hand shop, they will sell think really cheap. I suppose 500pounds or less. That means I have to sell it almost for nothing. This is one reason many people keep their Japanese Kimono and do not sell even if they do not wear anymore and they actually want to get rid of it.
Japanese clothes is really troublesome to wear. So people often reluctant to wear.
I would go to hair-dresser to make me wear if I decided to wear Japanese clothes for a party such as friends' wedding. Hair dresser would charge me at least 200 pounds including hair.
It is expensive however it is important to wear Japanese Kimono at the wedding. It is said that the number of girl who wear Japanese kimono represent the status of the party.
So if you want to contribute to upgrade the status of the wedding, it is the best way. Especially if the bride asked you to wear, it is hard to say No.
Not only troublesome but also expensive to wear!
I think Kimono is such a beautiful material. The fabric is really amazing and breath taking sometimes. I think these material should deserve second like. If someone remake Japanese kimono into modern clothes, I think it will be really popular.
I really want Japanese Fabric second life.
Because it is just such a pity.
However I also know that remaking can not be mass-production since each Japanese kimono would have different shape and material. So it would not be a good business.
Wait!
How about for the party dress?
I think many people make order-maid dress. If they use Japanese fabric instead of brand new plain fabric.

I do not think I will do dress-making business though.

Flash-able Napkin

2009-08-09T05:48:00.000-07:00

I found Flash-able Napkin in a Japanese shop today.
(Am I late to find this product?)
Napkin is the product girls use for their period. They can not be flashed since this material contain some plastic parts and can not be dissolved. It is quite necessary things otherwise the bloods will be leaked.
I think Flash-able Napkin is a great products if they really work. We do not need to put sanitary box in bathroom and do not need to take care of them.
This topic might be a bit gross to make readers.
So I purchased and need to examine them: if they really work well as napkins and if they are really flash-able.

Japanese Lesson

2009-08-07T01:05:00.000-07:00

I started to provide a Japanese lesson.
I put an advertisement on Gumtree. My idea is that I can provide lesson over Skype and receive the payment by paypal.
My lesson is around 4 pounds for one hour.
Definitely I can not earn for my living and I have not intention for that .
However it give me a lot of enjoyment.
Currently, I have one student.
She is quite advanced and even has passed the Second class Japanese exam, which is quite difficult. Our lesson is mainly conversation.
I try to provide a worthy lesson rather than just chatting otherwise it is not really lesson.
I consult my friends who are much experienced in teaching Japanese for advanced students.
My friends said that we can decided a topic and have a conversation. Maybe we can even read a small article from a newspaper. That might give us some new grammar and new vocabulary.

I think internet teaching is a great way to provide lesson because we can be free from the physical distance. If you are a lady, it also give you some safety.
I still love to meet people in real thought.

Providing Japanese lesson is such a joy. Until I tried, I never thought it would be this fun.
Their Japanese is really cute and the questions are so innocent.
Currently my lesson is one to one however I think group lesson would be more fun and profitable for both students and teachers since the conversation would have more width and depth with more people.

If you are looking for someone who you can swap language, the site below might be really useful. Good luck!
http://www.sharedtalk.com/index.aspx?SRC=GAds.SN.en.Language.Swap&gclid=CKPCnM2ymJwCFQEupAodLlQZeg

MacBook

2009-08-06T23:29:00.000-07:00

My current computer is MacBook.
When I was a student. I was studying in architect course in Engineering department.
I was kind of forced to use Mac since there most of us use Mac.
I did not like Mac that time. It freezes often and expensive.

After Mac OS X, Mac is really different however my most of my Mac experience was before X and I moved to windows and Linux. Now I return to Mac! “Welcome Back, Tomoko”.
Mac has many cute applications. They might not give me radical change in my life however much pleasure.
In that sense, they might be just a toy.
My favourite is “photo booth”. This application is basically just camera and vide using camera embedded on computer. They have a cool effects.
However it seems not to last long.

I started to talk, however the effect is disappearing. I was quite shocked.

I tried another effect. This time, it lasts longer, however it is also disappearing. I was quite upset toward the end.

Music

2009-08-06T22:07:00.000-07:00

I am currently reading “Losing Virginity” by Richard Branon. Yes, it is the guy who founded virgin Record. I borrowed this book from a library.
Since his story is in Located in London and outside of London in UK, it reminded me of many things I have seen in UK, especially Suffolk.

Especially his parents in the story is quite nice to read. Whatever his choice he made, they just support with believe and faith for success. I think his life is such an adventure however if he has that stable love and support, he can be always stable in his mind.

I also enjoy the music in this book. Since his story with often some musicians in that time.
I do not know music much and what is more I do not know British music when I was an infant. So while I am reading this book, I found the music on Youtube and listen.
It is really enjoyable.
I sometimes think I have a problem to tell what I like such as which music what I like.
As Branson is saying in this book, music is really important for soul since music really define people's personality and character. I think I need to continue to listen many different music until I can tell what I like and what sort of sound I like.
So this book is really nice to introduce me music although I can find music here is a bit old.

Recently I find my faborit. Kate Miller-Heidke: the last day on earth
BTW, I am wondering why there is no “the” before “earth”?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fj4Rc9bOxNI&feature=related
I heard her on TV and search her on Youtube.
This video is really cute and cleaver. It is some kind of chatting game, I guess. And the characters there are singing.

I also like Paul Dateh Celtic Blues
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=36Xt-XeWnHM
I found his vide on Youtube by chance when I felt like listing violin sound and search for it on Youtube.

I also like Yoshida brothers. They looks cook and they sounds cool too.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gPOmo9f0-Pc

I think I like sound such as violins and piano however I am not really into classic music.
If you have any recommendation, let me know.

Hiking in Brisbane Ranges National Park

2009-06-19T03:49:00.000-07:00

Hiking in Brisbane Ranges National Park

This is my first hiking in Melbourne. I attend at a hiking group from The meetup.
(Meetup is a social website. If you are intersted in, check it out. Wherever in are in the world, this website work well.)

Brisbane Ranges National Park is a place from one and half hour from Melbourne by car. This hiking is around 10km and around 25 people attended.

This hiking was not that heavy however I have not done excise for a while, therefore it was hard for me. Last summer, Melbourne suffered from a lot of fire in forest. Here is one of the place where fire was. So we would see black bits which was burn out some time ago.
While walking I did not talked with people a lot because simply I could not speak with walking.
However I was listing peoples' conversation. It was interesting. I really liked listening to them.

After the hiking, we drove to a small vineyard where we can have light meal or tea. I have a cup of coffee and scone. While walking I did not talked with people a lot however at this tea time, I talked with people a lot and I really enjoyed. The coffee I had was a really strange coffee. My new friend asked me “how is your coffee”. I said that I remembered my granma made coffee like this when I was a child. It had some nice burn out smell although it would never said to be a nice cup of coffee.

leggings

2009-06-16T22:38:00.000-07:00

eggings
eggings are a type of clothes which is something between treasures and thick stocking.
Here in Melbourne, many girls wearing that.
It is soft and warm and cheap. It is almost perfect clothes.
What made me surprise is that girls sometimes wear this legins without covering their bat.
So we can see their pretty figure of bat. We Japanese are quite shy nation and could not wear like that. However I found out that showing bats figure is quite pretty.
So I decided to buy a legins and wear in the way of not covering bat figure.
Japanese girls care something small things. I have travel a lot of the world and stay there however I am still a Japanese girl.
For example we really care not to show nipple figures whenever we are clothes. So I was so surprised when I saw a swimming wear which does not have thick internal about the breast.
I am happy to show my bat figure in Melbourne however I think nipple figures are a bit advanced to me and I need to be used to open culture more to show their figure in public.

Ghost cat

2009-06-16T22:35:00.000-07:00

Ghost cat
In my apartment, a cat is living. I am not sure it is he or she. I think it is she because male cats are often not that friendly. Female cats are often miss the close gesture with people and come to people more.
Our cat are really miss to be hold my people.
She is not a alive cat.
I have once seen her in my dream. That time, my body was freeze and I could not move and I was in half dream and half real world.
She come to my under arm and sleep happily. I thought this happened just by chance and did not take much serious. However it happened again next day again. Then I realised that I should not have a nap on the couch.
I am happy to have her because I believe she does not have any evil feeling and I feel she just misses to be hugged and patted.

Wicked

2009-02-11T20:06:00.000-08:00

I went to see a musical, called “Wicked”.
I think I like this musical. It is a behind of the story of “The Wonderful Wizard of Oz ”. Why the wicked became like that and how she was before so on.
I like story itself especially. It is really describe the really world well especially Japanese society. The stage is all so quite powerful thought.
BTW, I do not really remember the story of “The Wonderful Wizard of Oz”. Maybe I will read.

I went to see this musical with friend from work. She is working is a different department however me met at a training and start to chat. She is living with her husband and there house is close to my place by chance.
She looks so quiet and elegant however she travel with backpack and think more active way. I like her diversity.
After the musical, we had a Great chat and that made me really happy.
I think she is my new type of friends.
Wish me luck so that I can be good friend of her.

poem

2009-02-02T18:19:00.000-08:00

Poem

============================
Open source
I did not know you before. I though the lake I was in is the only world for me.
After I know you, it was like, I saw the sea first time in my life.

When I was a child, I simply believe many things. Especially I believe people around me.
After , I learn that people around me are busy and do not have time to talk with me. They do not have to me and I start to think they do not care people at all.
Open source, you showed me that I am wrong.
I am a little fish and can not swim in the sea like a whale however I think I can enjoy being in the sea.

Tomoko
=============================================

This is my poem.
I have watched a move “post man”. A post men who is really simple and kind of modest and poor guy write a poem to get the hart of his dream girl.
I like the character of him in this movie although I am not sure I will be attracted to him as a men. I do not have the subtitle in this movie however the movie is pretty enough to keep my eyes.

Have you ever receive a poem from people? I do not think I have.

another starbucks bear

2009-01-28T23:07:00.000-08:00

I decided to try again.
In the bible it is said that “you should continue knock the door, then it shall open. You should continue to search, then it shall be found.”
We have to be consist.

Today, I purchased a Starbucks bear near my office. I found only one bear there and I asked the staff “where are other bears? ” . The staff said this is the last one.
It is not because this bear is popular but they do not make many according to her.
While the staff was wrapping it, she gave a small cup of coffee.
Actually I quit coffee, I took it and enjoyed.

I would like to send this bear to my parents for Valentine day with chocolate.
I would ask them not to give it away this to anyone. I hope they do not give away my presents this time.

Now I imagine things this say. Probably they are nice people and would like to give things to people. So they does not care where the things come from or how the person who gave it feel if they give it away.

This time, I will write a nice card explaining why they need to keep that bear and how I feel if they do not keep it in a nice way. Wish me a luck.

a starbuck bear

2009-01-27T22:48:00.000-08:00

a starbuck bear

Recently I went to Australia. I purchased only two things for my family.
One is a shoes to my one year old niece. The other is a soft toy bear from starbucks.
This bear wear a jacket and really cute.
The bears from starbucks always have the name of the region. This time “Australia”!
I purchased this for my parents since I thought if they keep it in the family house, it would be a good remembrance of my trip.

However my mother gave it to my niece.
I asked her to keep it at home so that it will make a good collection.
I am not happy about this.
Of course, I can not ask my sister to return it. So I just say to my mother “Next time I buy a bear, please keep it at home so that it will make a good collection. ”

My mother do not really care how I feel, I often feel complain.
I remember when I buy her a birthday present to her some years ago, she gave that to her relative in front of me the next second. I think maybe she just does not understand people have feeling or she is living in a different culture.
I think I should respect her culture.
I understand after we give a presents to someone, we should not concern what that person is going to do with it because we are not the owner anymore.

By the way, this picture is not mine. So the bear has a flog of China.
Mine was “Australia”. Other things are completely same.

2009-01-26T21:11:00.001-08:00

I send a Christmas present to my niece.
She is just one year old. I purchased a pink nit hat near my place.
My sister sent me picture of her with that hat but no message inside the envelope.

Japanese income

2009-01-15T19:51:00.000-08:00

I would like to introduce about Japanese work situation.

The left graph is the average income of Japanese depending on the age.

The blue line is the men and red line is the women.

http://nensyu-labo.com/heikin_nenrei.htm

men women

(unit=10,000yen)

(10,000yen=50pounds)

70years old 411 253 <>

65～69years old 398 215

60～64years old 505 233

55～59years old 638 263

50～54years old 667 266

45～49years old 662 278

40～44years old 634 281

35～39years old 560 296

30～34years old 463 300

25～29years old 381 295

20～24years old 271 231

19years old以下 156 126

total average 542 271

Men earn most when they are 50～54years old. Women earn most when they are 30～34years old.

Women’s average never over 300. This amount is a bit small to live independently.

I do not say it is unfair. I think many Japanese women are not interested in independent.

It does not mean women are not allowed to be independent. I think if they want they still have way.

professional's incomes in Tokyo 1

2009-01-15T19:50:00.000-08:00

Here is the average income depending on the professions.

I think it is quite interesting.

A cabin attendant earns more than a first-class architect.

profession average income（unit=10,000yen）(10,000yen=50pound)

1 pilot 1308

2 university professor 1122

3 doctor 1104

4 correspondent 894

5 university semi professor 878

6 lawyer 851

7 accountant 831

7 certified public tax accountant 831

9 policemen 813

10 dentist 780

11 high school teacher at the public schools 776

12 lectures at universities 766

13 elementary school or junior high teacher at public school 742

14 high school teacher 736

15 fire man 717

16 maritime safety official 688

17 researcher 676

18 train driver 613

19 cabin attendant 601

20 first-class architect 599

21 professional engineer 594

- private company average 435

http://nensyu-labo.com/2nd_syokugyou.htm

Cakes

2009-01-12T23:20:00.000-08:00

Cakes

I did not realized until recently that cakes are really special food to me.
Cakes are not the food we have to eat but the food we choose to eat.
They are pretty and I took it granted.
Recently I traveled and found out that in some area in the world, cakes are not pretty.
The cakes I saw from the window are even squashed and the jam insides are dropped out.
I was shocked to see as much as I see girls walking showing their underwear or boys are hitting girls.

I was thinking of these ugly cakes for some days.
I thought they look ugly and do not look delicious however it must taste nice otherwise it is too bad.
I went into one of the ugly shops where three small tables and 5 steel pipe chairs.
and asked a piece of vanilla slice and a cup of tea. It cost around 5 pound.
There 5 pound is the money we can eat one dish of cheap curry. I have to say it is not that cheap.
The cream of the vanilla slice was not good at all. I am not the specialized in cakes however I love pretty cakes as a ordinary person.
Why it is like that?!
It is hard to accept this fact.
Cakes are special things which makes us happy and that is why we pay for that .
I do not know what in this world I can find happiness if cakes are like that .

Business call

2008-12-13T23:15:00.000-08:00

I often use English at work. However I am not really educated in business English.
I can communicate with people in English however I do not have confidence in Business English.

Japanese and Business Japanese are so different and almost like a different language.

Today, I made a business telephone call in English. The content is not really complicated and really easy. I also prepare what I talk.

When I want to enclose our conversation, I say “thank you” and I expect him to say “Good bye”.
However he was so kind and waited what I was going to ask next.
So I say “thank you” again.
I asked my native friend, what can be a good remark of “good-bye”. He said that “Thank you for your time. ” is good to say in this situation.
I think even in Japanese we say that way too.

I am so scared of being rude. Obviously I do not try to rude, however people pick up something small and got angry especially in Japanese business environment.
I remember my first day of company, I say “Good morning ” to people.
People got angry with it. I asked the reason. They say that my behaviour is so careless to people.
Since people might have worked over night and if someone say “good morning”, that sound hit their head. So I am supposed to just bow.
I asked them “Did you work over night? ” . They said that “No, we did not this time. BTW your question sound so offensive. Why can you just say yes, sir? ”

I am afraid that I have some special talent to sound offensive although I do not mean anything at all.
I think as far as I try to be polite and nice, people do not need to get angry.
I want to work more western company so that I do not need to care something small.
I do not say, in western environment, I am allowed to make a mistakes.
I just believe they do not care something not important.
To work in western environment is one of my dream.

I think my conversation at my company is quite interesting.
I should keep and broadcast. They are funny as well.

Dangerous word

2008-12-13T22:53:00.000-08:00

Here in Japan, we use English in our Japanese conversation more and more.
Recently I found a dangerous word.
You can see below. For us it is hard to made a difference between them.
So to avid the risk, I wonder which word can substitute “pushy”?
Accorning to the thesaurus, “aggressive” and “offensive” .
http://thesaurus.reference.com/browse/pushy

pushy
behaving in an unpleasant way by trying too much to get something or to make someone do something
Ex. you are too pushy.

http://dictionary.cambridge.org/define.asp?key=64412&dict=CALD

Pussy
a woman's vagina
Ex. You've got a nice pussy.
http://dictionary.cambridge.org/define.asp?key=64445&dict=CALD

Dinner Guest

2008-11-11T05:02:00.001-08:00

Yesterday, I had a guest in my room for dinner.
She is from south Africa.
I becomes her friend recently , two month ago. Actually she is leaving just after the Christmas day. So I wanted to do something for her.
We had a relax dinner and talked a lot about something extreme girl y. I will not write what we talked here though.

Terry Lloyd

2008-11-11T04:57:00.000-08:00

I attend the pc user's group last week. The presenter was Terry Lloyd.
My American hiking friend is working for him and he invited me there . Terry Lloyd is a famous entrepreneur here in Tokyo.
He talked about selling companies and for me it really sounded scary although he looked so handsome and sweet.

http://www.tokyopc.org/

Cafe-meetup

2008-11-09T03:45:00.000-08:00

Cafe meet-up was really nice although I only have two people.
I expected around ten people and ended up three.
We walked around the town until dark and I really enjoyed to be with them.

2008-11-04T06:41:00.000-08:00

I had a guest in my place who is living in Nara prefecture.
She is my friend from the University.
I really enjoyed to be with her. However I felt really tired after she has gone.

We went to Ueno. The museum is there where Vermeer's pictures are. I've heard that his pictures are only thirty works and eight out of thirty are now in Tokyo.
The works are really nice and I can see his works forever.
In the Ueno park, we found a man who is selling his hand made pin. He made a name pin out of one wire. My friend purchased me one.

No alcohol

2008-10-31T06:15:00.001-07:00

Recently I find out my body really do not agree with alcohol.
So I decided not to drink at all.

Nobody

2008-10-31T06:11:00.000-07:00

Have you ever met anyone who can not order at the restaurants?
Have you ever met anyone who can not tell what is his/her favorite song?
Have you ever met anyone who can not tell what is his/her preference in anythings?
Have you ever met anyone who can not enjoy watching sports?
I suppress my emotion to this extent, I can not see what I feel.
Only in the case, I feel extremely strong like explosion, I can feel.

My friends, gives me his favorite songs.
Now I am listening his favorite songs. This is not my favorite but his favorite. Now I am borrowing his favorite. I hope I can have mine someday.

Suggestion

2008-10-31T05:46:00.000-07:00

I visited with my friends and I talked with him for hours.
He suggested me several things below.

Join Learn_Japanese forum.
http://learnjapanesepod.com/forum/
There people have a good community and he suggest me to join. I have seen them in real several time and I understand they are great.
Try volunteer work as a Japanese teacher
I have never teach Japanese however it might be enjoyable at the same time it will be helpful to others.
Business card
I should have a personal business card so that people can contact me. It is also really greeting. I am to organize cafe-meet-up. There I will deliver my new personal business cards.
Small note for cafe-meet-up
I will meet new people at the cafe-meet-up. I can ask people to write to me in my small note such as their contact and message to me. I will buy small pretty one for this.
Candy and chewing gum
My friends said I should carry candies always and give people. It would be a good ice break. He said he could have sex because of this small trick.
Think of the topic I can think of
It is nice to prepare some topic I can talk with people. Sometimes I can not really talk therefore I had better to prepare.
Don't argue , especially first time.
I often argue. It is not really nice.
Contact people more even if I do not like.
I am lazy and do not contact people. However if I want to have good community type of friendship, I should send e-mail to people more solidly. For example, when I met new people, I should send E-mail immediately after say good bye.

Cafe-meetup

2008-10-31T05:30:00.000-07:00

I love cafe. There we can have nice conversation with friends over a cup of coffee. I love various type of cafes: small cozy inner cafe, cafe with terrace in sunny days, wild garden style cafe.
So I decided to have cafe meet-up. This will a series of meet-up if this first meet-up go well. I often think to be happy we do not need a lot of things.
http://www.meetup.com/English-In-Tokyo/calendar/9059903/

Virtual Machine

2008-10-19T06:11:00.001-07:00

Virtual Machine
This weekend, I tried VM first in my life.
Virtual machine is the thing you can have other OS on your OS.

For example, I am running Ubuntu OS on my computer. I wanted to have CentOS.
I only have one computer. What can I can do for this?!
I can have VM and run CentOS on Ubuntu.
If I want to have WndowsXP on Ubuntu, I can use VM again.
It is said that famous VM is below.
Xen
Vmware
Virtualbox

This time, I tried Vmware.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Virtual_machine
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/VMware_Workstation

Book club

2008-10-19T05:56:00.001-07:00

This month is the halloween month.
So my book club chose a murder mystery novel.
The story teller is a 15 year old boy who has Asperger’s Syndrome and live with his father.
The English itself is really easy to read.
The emotion of people around him is understandable and I feel warm and sad.

Synopsis from Amazon
The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time is a murder mystery novel like no other. The detective, and narrator, is Christopher Boone. Christopher is fifteen and has Asperger's, a form of autism. He knows a very great deal about maths and very little about human beings. He loves lists, patterns and the truth. He hates the colours yellow and brown and being touched. He has never gone further than the end of the road on his own, but when he finds a neighbour's dog murdered he sets out on a terrifying journey which will turn his whole world upside down.

Hiking

2008-10-19T04:01:00.000-07:00

Recently I go hiking often.
One day, my friends invited me go hiking and I found that hiking is really nice.

And hiking is my favorite things to do on the weekend.
I have done three hiking so far.
I recently even purchase tracking shoes.

Below I put the Itineraries.
First one

- Leave 経堂駅（小田急線） on the 8:03 train （小田原行急行）
- Get off at 新松田駅 and walk to 松田駅 (right next to it)
- Leave 松田駅（御殿場線） on the 9:25 train （沼津行）
- Arrive at 駿河小山駅 at 9:49
- (Total one-way cost from 経堂駅: 880円)

- Stop at an お土産 shop in 小山町 to say "hello"
- Go to a 7-11 in 小山町 to get any last-minute food/water

- Hike to 世附峠 (250m -> 800m over ~6km)

- Eat lunch

- If you want to go higher:
- Hike to 湯船山 (800m -> 1000m over ~4km)

- Hike back down to 小山町

- If you want to see (another) waterfall:
- Hike to 遊女の滝 (250m -> 400m over ~3km)
- Hike back down to 小山町

- Return to 東京 by train

Second one

- 電車 6:12〜7:30 経堂駅→小田原駅（小田急線急行、小田原行、750円）
- 電車 7:37〜7:52 小田原駅→箱根湯本駅（箱根登山線、箱根湯本行、300円）
- ハイキング CP1→CP4 (~30.5km)
- バス桃源台→湯本駅 (箱根登山バス、~1000円、1時間位）
- 電車箱根湯本駅→小田原駅（箱根登山線、小田原行、300円）
- 電車小田原駅→経堂駅（小田急線急行、新宿行、750円）

Third one

予定表：
- 電車 7:41 - 9:15 新宿駅→小田原駅（小田急線急行、小田原行）
- バス 9:25 - 10:02 小田原駅東口→仙石（箱根登山バス）
- 登山 10:02 - 11:45 金時山
- 昼食 11:45 - 13:00 頂上で
- 下山 13:00 - 15:00
- バス 15:12 - 15:50 仙石→小田原駅（箱根登山バス）
- 電車 15:56 - 17:27 小田原駅→新宿駅（小田急線急行、新宿行）

E-mobile on Ubuntu

2008-10-19T03:41:00.000-07:00

I finally use e-mobile on Ubuntu.
It took a long time to make it possible. I check some web pages and tried their command however I could not fix it.
This time, I asked my friends to help me and finally I've to a internet life.
Here is the command I used.
#pppconfig
Connection name: emobile
Number: *99***1#
User: em@em
Password: replace_with_password
Speed:115200
Com: /dev/ttyUSB0
Method: PAP
To remove the device, /dev/ttyUSB0, I can use this command.
$ sudo modprobe -r uhci_hcd

To set up the device , I can use this command.
$ sudo modprobe uhci_hcd

To connect to the internet, I can use this command.
$ pon emobile

To cut the internet connection, I can use this command.
$ poff emobile

to test if I can get the internet access or not. I type this command.
#ping www.google.com

I do not want to do this every time when I connect to the ineternet, so I put shell command on the desktop. What I need is just clicking on the command shell icon on the desktop.
Here is the shell command file's content.

#!/bin/bash
sudo pon emobile

Here is the command fragmentations I still do not know however my fried used.

ls /dev/ttyUSB*

pppconfig

pon emobile

man gksudo

cd /home/tomoko/Desktop/

vi emobile

chmod 755 emobile

chown tomoko:tomoko emobile

ls -al

exit

apt-get install build-essential

ls /usr/src/

cd /home/tomoko/

ls

cd Desktop/

ls

CompTIA

2008-09-08T07:16:00.000-07:00

I think to improve my knowledge on the computer, taking a exam might be nice.
One choice suggestged by Karamoon was CompTIA.
To consider about taking the exam, firstly I need to know what the object of the exam is. What for the exam is addressed. Secondly I need to see the past exam.
These two things I have done.

The object of the exam: CompTIA A+ certification validates the latest skills needed by today's computer support professionals. It is an international, vendor-neutral certification recognized by major hardware and software vendors, distributors and resellers. CompTIA A+ confirms a technician's ability to perform tasks such as installation, configuration, diagnosing, preventive maintenance and basic networking.

Outline of the exam
CompTIA A+ Essentials (220‐601) and one of the following: 220‐602 or 220‐603 or 220‐604
Time Allocated: 90 minutes per exam.
Number of Questions are as Follows:
CompTIA A+ Essentials 100
220‐602 (IT Technician) 90
220‐603 (Remote Support Technician) 90
220‐604 (Depot Technician) 90
220‐605 [to be decided]
The each exam cost me 100 pounds. So in total I need 200 pounds.
I thinks it is quite costly. If I take some training course, each course for each exam cost me more than 100 pounds. So if I take course and take the exam, in total it will be 400 pounds.
At the moment, I am studying something book keeping and attending school.
I think it is too dangerous to do many things.
So I decided to study by myself bit by bit at the moment for my enjoyment. I purchased a Dummies book. It cost me 26 pounds.
CompTIA A+ Certification All-In-One Desk Reference for Dummies (For Dummies (Computer/Tech)) (Paperback)

http://certification.comptia.org/resources/find_materials.aspx
http://certification.comptia.org/resources/find_materials.aspx?id=771

Router and Hub

2008-09-08T07:15:00.003-07:00

Sadly I do not even make a difference between routers and hubs. So I check the wikipedia.
In wikipedia, router is said that it is a computer which is specialized in routing and forwarding the network. Hub is the thing which performs as a one line.

Server project 2nd day

2008-09-08T07:15:00.001-07:00

I installed Ubuntus my given computer this Saturday. Karamoon and I configured Ubuntus and connect that new server to my laptop with cross cable.
In configuration, not many things are required. We give the new server a IP address “192,168,0,1” and the my computer “192,168,0,2” in this local net work.
“192,168,X,X” is a private IP address for home use. The number “255” is the number we should only use to skip to. “255” is the number to be ignored.
Mainly this is the things I have learned that day.

Karamoon explained many things. I am not sure how much I retained the content. Here I would like to write what I have got.
IP address is the unique ID for each machine in the network. Internet Protocol version 6 (IPv6) is an Internet Layer protocol for packet-switched internetworks. The Internet Engineering Task Force (IETF) h, for general use o as designated IPv6 as the successor of IPv4, the first and still dominant version of the Internet Protocoln the Internet.
ASCII:
Port numbers is an application-specific or process-specific communications endpoint used by Transport Layer protocols, such as Transmission Control Protocol (TCP) and User Datagram Protocol (UDP) of the Internet Protocol Suite. Port can be readily explained with an analogy: think of IP addresses as the street address of an apartment building, and the port number as the number of a particular apartment within that building. If a letter (a data packet) is sent to the apartment building (IP) without an apartment number (port number) on it, then nobody knows who (which service) it is for. In order for the delivery to work, the sender needs to include an apartment number along with the address to ensure the letter gets to the right domicile. As an example, a server used for sending and receiving email may provide both an SMTP (for sending) and a POP3 (for receiving) service; these will be handled by different server processes, and the port number will be used to determine which data is associated with which process. By convention, the SMTP (Simple Mail Transfer Protocol) server will listen on port 25, while POP3 (Post Office Protocol version 3 (POP3) will listen on port 110, although it is possible to use different ports.
TCP is Transmission Control Protocol. It is one of the core protocols
UDP is User Datagram Protocol. It is one of the core protocol if the internet protocol suite.
IP is Internet Protocol Suite is the set of communication protocols used for the internet and other similar networks. It is named from two of the most important
Proxy server: is a server which services the request of its client by forwarding requests to other servers. A client connects to the proxy server, requesting some services such as file, connection, webpage, or other sources. I think it sounds like a router.
Internet Protocol Suite: is the set of communication protocol used for the internet and other similar networks. It is named from two of the most important protocols in it: the transmission Control Protocol (TCP) and the Internet Protocol (IP), which were the first two networking protocols defined in this standard.

MS-DOS command (Microsoft Disk Operation System)
http://www5f.biglobe.ne.jp/~emo/msdos.htm
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/MS-DOS

Ping: computer network tool used test if a particular host is reachable across an IP network; it is used to self test network interface card of the computer. Karamoon said it is like groping. (“Grope” is a new word for me. Groper is a kind of pervert we can find in a train.) Ping www.google.com
Ipconfig: ipconfig (Internet Protocol Configuration) in Microsoft Windows is a console application that displays all current TCP/IP network configuration values and refreshes Dynamic Host Configuration Protocol DHCP and Domain Name System DNS settings.[

Love never fail

2008-09-08T07:13:00.001-07:00

This is a famous sentence from the bible.
What is love in your definition?
My biology friend said that in science love is said not to exist.
I discuss with this with some American woman recently. (We are not lesbian thought.)
I said to her love is like petrol which all people need to live and we exchange and take and receive. Although it does not have really shape we really use this petrol like an real petrol. All people are seeking this petrol.
Before I simply thought “love” is the strong word for “like”. Often “love” is produced by the emotion of “like” or “interested”.
I now assumed that this Love energy can be produced in a different way as well.
I am not really clear about this.
Love is patient, Love is
So this description is not really describing. How people choose to write this way?

All the description here is adjective.
It is like when we describe the nose of the elephant, it is said,
It is long, it is strong,

Book Club

2008-09-08T07:12:00.001-07:00

This month my book club’s book is “eat pray love”.
The main character is a woman in her mid thirty who has almost everything she is supposed to have. However she could not feel happy and need to find out.
People might think she is just a spoiled or too demanding. However I can understand.
What people want is different from what most people want.
It is important to get what people really want.
I have just started to read and I find out that I like her way of writing.
I am not a native English speaker and however still I find some writing in my preference and some are not.
Not only the story itself but the way of talking is sometime more precious to me. Nice way of writing makes me feel like I have a grate talking with my friend in a cozy café.

Computer/Terms

2008-09-01T06:22:00.002-07:00

Terms
There are several terms I need to familiar with.
I will put there some. It might not organize some structured knowledge thought.
LAMP: Linux, Appache, MySQL, PHP. This is the most practical combination for use. Linux is the OS and Appache is the web server and MySQL is the database and PFP is programming.

PHP: PHP Hypertext programming. I know it sound strange. This king of words is called recursion. Something like two mirror are seeing each other and we can see the repeating reflecting imagines indefinitely.

UNIX: is the OS developed by “AT&T” which is an American Telecommunication Company. UNIX was expensive system only for a Rich Corporation. It is firstly developed around the end of the world war two. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Unix

BSD: Bakery software Distribution. I consider it is one type of open sources.

Computer/Server

2008-09-01T06:22:00.001-07:00

Server

I decided to set up my own server.

My teacher is Karamoon.

He taught me about server the last weekend.

Firstly I needed to know what is server. I knew that there are “server” and “client”.

Server is the computer which is us the data and client is computer which just receives the data. Nowadays clients can be also are server. For example when we use P2P file share system, we download the file and at the same time we give the files. So we have vaguer category than before.

Here is the list of servers. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Server_(computing)
Mail servers
File servers (NFS, FTP/SCP): it is a storage place of data and many workstations can share that data. File servers are often categorized by the method of the access.

File servers may also be categorized by the method of access: Internet file servers are frequently accessed by File Transfer Protocol (FTP) or by HTTP. Servers on a LAN are usually accessed by SMB/CIFS protocol (Windows and Unix-like) or NFS protocol (Unix-like systems).

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File_server
NFS: Network File System Protocol.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Network_File_System_(protocol)
FTP: network protocol used to transfer data from one computer to another through a network, such as the Internet.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/FTP
Web servers
Proxy servers.: This server transfers the request from the clients to the server which can answer to the requests.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Proxy_server
print servers
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Print_server
Database servers
Database servers provides access to a shared database via a database device driver, are not regarded as file servers.

Among these servers, I am planning to have “File servers” and “Database server”.

Abstraction layer

2008-09-01T06:20:00.000-07:00

My description might not be exact right however I believer what I need is to get used to the concept. Things do not need to exact.

I understand the abstraction layer as below.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Abstraction_layer

KDE
Shell
Kernel
Firmware Bios
Hardware HDD, RAM

KDE: Desk top manager. Except this desk top manager Gnome is also well known desk top manager.

Shell: a shell is a piece of software that provides an interface for users. Typically, the term refers to an operating system shell which provides access to the services of a kernel. There are two kinds of shells.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shell_(computing)#Text_.28CLI.29_shells

GUI (graphical user interface)
One of the well known shells is “the X windowing system”. This software give us more friendly interface. It is not related to something Microsoft windows at all. It is a GUL got Linux, Windows.

Another famous GUI is ”windows explore”. It is not related to “Internet explore” at all.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Windows_Explorer

CLI(command line interface)
I often type bash command in the black console window. This sort tof unfriendly interface is supposed to be CLI.
We have many different commands type: CMD, BASH, CSH, KSH, BSH.
Among these command, bash is the most popular and I have used before.

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Computer/OSI model

2008-09-01T06:19:00.001-07:00

OSI model

This is an imaginary layered communication of computer connection. Here we have seven layers. Computers are connected and communicate each other as we experienced in our life. When computer communicate they use protocols. They use different protocols depending on the occasions. All the protocols are allocated in one of the seven layers.

1. Physical layers: Drivers
2. Data link layers: Ethernet (very popular network system)
3. Network layers: IP
4. Transport layers: TCP, UDP
5. Session layers: POP, log in
6. Presentation layers: Encryption
7. Application layers: DNS, e-mail

(Layer name: protocol examples)

We can use these sentences to memorize all the layers: “Please Do Not Throw Sausages Pizza Away”, “All People Seems To Need Data Processing”.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/OSI_model

Yakiniku

2008-08-29T16:55:00.000-07:00

Yakiniku is in-room barbecue.
Tonight I had Yakiniku with my colleagues. I do not often go out with my colleagues.
So whenever someone organize the dinner or lunch I never skip and attend.
After the dinner most of us went to Karaoke which I did not.
I felt tired and decided to go home.
It started to rain while we are eating. I did not have an umbrella.
I thought I needed to walk to the station without umbrella and started to walk after saying good bye to my colleagues. Soon after that, a man offer me his umbrella saying his house is just there and I could take it.
After he passed me his umbrella he just run away.
I have small nice things every day.

Server

2008-08-28T03:13:00.000-07:00

I was talking with one of my colleagues.
He said I should set up server by myself especially, Linux one.
So that I can develop my knowledge and I can be useful at work.

I am a Linux user. However I am just use as a client.
If you know about Linux, you know that there are some distributions which is
so easy and almost same interface as windows.
We do not need to know Linux command.

My current Linux is Kubuntsu.
I tried Sabayon, and Mepis.
If you are totally Linux beginner and want to try, I recommend this.
I am so weak in tech but I managed to install and use it.
I think most of people who are just windows users can do this.
I consulted my computer -Guru who is in London. He is Russian.
He is participates in Pappy Linux development.
This distribution is live-USB Linux and really small.
He promised me to help me to set up

I have only one laptop. Nothing else.

So if I use my current laptop for server, I can not use my computer for daily use.

Especially I want to talk with my computer-Guru with setting up the server. So I need one more computer especially laptop since my room is small.

I asked my colleagues who suggest me to set up a server if he has some laptop in no ues. He said that he can give me his old laptop.

It has only 258 MB RAM MERMORY and 30 GB.

I think it is all right.

I will not tell about this anyone until I successfully set up.

BTW I choose Fedora as my Server.

Wish me luck!

Kamakura

2008-08-21T15:13:00.000-07:00

I went to Kamakura with my friend.
It is summer and I wanted to go to the sea. It is nice to people's health.
I check the weather report on the Wednesday and it said that it would be fine.
It is so nice to have a n ice plan on Weekend. I can spent weekdays more efficiently if I have a gret plan on the coming weekend.
Especially I love outdoor.

Region restriction

2008-06-26T20:25:00.001-07:00

In the book club meeting, one of us mentioned one American soup opera called LOST and it is a story who are lost in
some island and they have book club there.
One of us asked the member who mentioned this where they get books.
Interesting question!
I want to watch this soup opera!
I visited the offical web site of this web-site. There the full length of streams are give , apparantely.
When I click to watch full length stream, I've got a messange that this full length strams are only for people who are in
America.
How come!
The internet is the things which we can get the information regardless where we are as far as we get the access to the internet, isn't it?!

BBC as well. We can not get some pages if we are not in UK.
If I have time, I would like to write a report about internet region restriciton.
Nice topic isn't it?!

Book club

2008-06-26T20:24:00.002-07:00

Book club
I attended the book club yesterday.
We are around fifteen women and one guy. Most of us are married western woman.I guess many of them came to Tokyo with thier hasband who is transferred to Tokyo. Some are in the different case, I assume.

I think I am the only Japanese woman there.
In that sense, I am a minority as the one guy there.
This time the book is a novel called "the book thief". It is a story about a girl who live in the Nazi circumstance in German.

The characters in this novel are quite lovable.
I enjoyed the question at the book club: who is your favorite character in this novel?
Mine is Rudy, who is had lemon color hair and the best friend of the book thief.
The atmosphere is quite nice in this book club .It remind me my high school days since I attended girl high school.
The difference is at that time of my old school days we are more spoiled girls and here we are more adult and mature
and have ability to consider other people.
However I can feel more relaxing and gentile atmosphere which I can not find at male society.
The next novel is -.
To be honest, I prefer novel, especially emotional one.
this book is rather technical book and might not be my preference.
To have chances to read books I do not fancy is also a great point of attending book club.
So I start to read this one.

Smart girl

2008-06-26T20:24:00.001-07:00

He said that I am too smart to be happy. He is who.
I think I will introduce him soon later, my new friend.
I do not agree with it.
Firstly I am not that smart. In my daily life, I have many mistakes and I always wish to be smarter.
My making mistakes are to the extent to be called creative. Nobody can not be that ways.
I am quite sure if I write what kind of mistakes I am making everyday, I can write a book.
Actually it might not be a bad idea.
Secondly I do not really agree that smart people can not be happy.
If we are dull, we can take the current situation without doubt or complain and be happy?
Old day, we were in the situation where we can not change the situation much and we needed to take things
as it is. Now we have more choice in our life and therefore we need to take responsibility for our happiness.
The reason I am not happy sometimes is that I am not brave enough to face the reality and deal with it.
I like drink just to escape what I have to face sometimes. I want to have some time which allows me free from my reality and pain. In that way, people can not be happy.

starving

2008-06-18T06:16:00.001-07:00

I think I am starving.
Seriouly.
I lived with my family and my mother is good at cooking so I can not eat something not tasty.
Now I need to feed me by myself.
I do not like eat out.
I do not find it really tasy.
the only way I can eat is cooking by myself which is tasty.
To cook something tasy require quite much work. I can not do that everyday.
So I lost quite much wait and I remember my mother said I looked miserable in loosing weight.

when I met her last weekend.
I think I need to buy refregirator so that I can keep my cooked dish.
At the moment, I do not have referegirator.

I feel so tired and even if I take much sleep I can not recover. I think I do not have enough nutrition and
this is the cause for it.

Lncnch Friend

2008-06-18T06:14:00.000-07:00

I am trying to have lunch friends weekday.
At lunch time, I am so lonly and I think it is really nice if I have nice lucn friends, who
is not realated at my work at all and have small nice conversation.
So I put the advertisement at the metoloplitan-magazine.

Lunch friend
Are you British female?
I am looking for British Female to have lunch together on weekday near the Tokyo station.
I was in London for two years and have good English.

So every day when I came back home I expect some e-mail however I have got any so far.
Actually she is not really need to be British and even female just I thought I can have something
more common and safe situation.
How I can change the advertisement to make it attractive?
Do you think?

My first guest to my apartment

2008-06-16T15:48:00.000-07:00

I've got guests to my apartment for dinner. They are an couple.
They are my first guest beside my parents. I thought my place is too small to have guest however I find not so bad.
I really enjoy cook and talk with them. I would love to do that more !

Father's day

2008-06-16T15:47:00.000-07:00

The last Sunday was the father's day in Japan.
Is it international holiday? I am not sure about it. Anyway, I think I need to do something for my father.
My father is not lucky person concerning family especially in his childhood so I think it is my responsibility to make sure
that he does not feel lonely or sad.
So I decided to invite my parents to my apartment and cook for them. They actually changed the plan saying they find my place is
too small and can not stay more than one hour and prefer to go somewhere together and eat something nice.
I agreed with them.

British pub

2008-06-08T06:08:00.000-07:00

I went to British pub with my friends. We are four girls together.
We had live band there. I do not really know what songs they are playing. All the songs are not familiar with me at all. Never mind.
That made me really excited. It is really British pub and I remember many good time I had in London.
So at the counter, I even try to order Pimz even if I can guess it might be hard to find it here.
I could not get it.
I ordered Calua-milk.

American guy talked to me. He said he is an English teacher in Japan and stayed here for ten years.
I did not like him from the beginning. It is not his fault nor mine. It is just like that .
He said I should sit on his lap.
Can you believe that?
Why do I need to sit on his lap? How dare he say that?
This is the way we Japanese girls are treated by some discreet western.
(Sorry I know some are not like that and I have great western friends here and in London.)
If I am in London, I would say no to him clearly. Here in Japan it is hard to say no.
So I try to be far away from him pretending just dancing and unintentionally being far away.
I did that successfully.

Socialization

2008-06-08T05:49:00.000-07:00

socialization is always important topic.
Especially when you move to a new place or your change your life style from a student to a worker.
All people need good friend and socialized in a good way.
I do remember my mother also have difficulty in socialization after she moved from the southern part of Japan to Tokyo away from her all relatives and old friends. Since in Tokyo people are not so open minded. Japan is a small country however we still have much difference in areas.
I was brought up in Tokyo and work so thing have some knowledge to be socialised.
However still I need to make my way to be socialized and it is not that easy since here in Tokyo we do not have useful culture such as partying or talking to people casually.
Here I would like to describe a bit how I am doing for this.

Firstly I attend Church often. I make some close Japanese female friends. Going Church is important for me. I can feel calm and contend if I attend. Sometimes I do not attend for while and feel anxious. I can listen the preach as well as live music which is quite hard to find in Japan.
I remember we can find many live music in UK. It is not like that here.
Secondly I am attending TLUG. It is a technical meeting for Linux users. I really want to have good command of technical things. I am struggling and can not see the direction. Important thing is that I am really enjoying although I am lost often in the technical meeting. I made nice geek friend there.
I only attend technical meeting which is only once every two month.
Thirdly I started to attend book club. I find the meeting quite cosy and love it. Most of us are western woman (which I am not ) and some are not. I find something warm atmosphere here.
Maybe these three are the things I consider my constant activities.

I do not think my way is the typical Japanese socialised way. I do not even have an idea how standard Japanese are socialized. Maybe tomorrow I will ask my colleagues. I am quite sure they are well socialized.

I tried may other things and found those are not for me.
For example I attended wine tasting event. It was not bad but I do not think I will attend again.
Since I have chances to drink on business so I thought it is nice if I have basic knowledge in Wine. Drinking is important culture in Japan like it is in UK. I guess it might be slightly different way though. I did not enjoyed this meeting however I have some information about restaurants which have nice wine at the reasonable price from other attendance. I will try them out.
(Naritaya:http://r.tabelog.com/tokyo/rstdtl/13017356/ )
(Ganbarujyo:http://r.gnavi.co.jp/p829000/)
I also attend something called “laugher Yoga”. I do not think I will attend again.
I do not remember much things there.
What else did I do? I do not remember....

At the moment, I would like to add activities which is more outdoor or sports. I am attending company tennis club. We only have the meeting once a month and it is midnight.

Here I would like to put some links which you might find useful. If you have good information, please share with me.
http://metropolis.co.jp/default.asp
http://www.tokyogaijins.com/index.html
http://www.meetup.com/

PC users group

2008-06-06T22:27:00.001-07:00

Since my friend said that he will make a presentation in this meeting, I decided to attend.
First I met him at the book club and he was wearing Ubuntu-t-shirt and I find out he is a nerd.
I planed to attend the meeting with my other nerd friend.
Unfortunately, I was late for the meeting since I could not finish my work and missed his presentation.
However it was not bad nit, is' it?!
I met my nerd friends and had Pizza dinner.
Do you think it is nice if I wear Ubuntu-t-shirt sometimes?
http://www.tokyopc.org/

Business training

2008-06-06T22:25:00.000-07:00

For two days I was attending at business training. I applied and my companied give me this training. I think my company really treat me well since I know that this training cost them much.
I thanks for this.
There we were to learn some logical thinking and practice in implementing the methods which we have learnt in some business cases, of course, from Harvard business school.
All people use materials from Harvard business school all over the world.
I have this kind of classes while I was in London.
I find this kind of class really exciting because give us the feeling of sport and we can even try in real.
I forget this feeling for long and this class reminded me of that.

What I want now

2008-06-04T04:50:00.000-07:00

Lunch friend.
Byecle

I think I can bye byecle in the end however lunch friends, I can not buy at the shops.
My company we only eat out together at lunch. Since we work together and we have too much complicated things, people want to be free from difficult things at least lunch time.

I want to have lunch friend who I do not need to show my respect each time and just have casul comfortable conversation.

Each lunch time, I feel isolated and I sometimes feel I do not want to eat.
I know I need.
If you work near Tokyo station, could you be my lunch friend? or if you have nice idea how I can get some, share that ideas with me, please

I lost my mobile phone

2008-06-03T07:37:00.001-07:00

I have lost my mobile phone for three weeks now. When I find it lost, I stop my mobile phone temporarily.
Now I gave up finding it.
It is extraordinary pain. If I gave up my phone number, it is easy however if I try to keep my numbers, I have to pay £100 to sort out many issues.
Fortunately, my friend gave me a phone and if I make that phone activate on my contract, what I need to pay is just around £10. Since I have a bit hectic life now, I still leave it as it is.

The little schemer

2008-06-03T07:25:00.001-07:00

The little schemer
The front cover is quite cute.
This book is recommended by one of my nerd friend when I said to him I would like to learn more computer things. Although I am terrible at computer I love it.
This book seems really nice. On the amazon website, it has high rating from readers.
Not all books has 5 star rating.

I was really looking forward to receive this book from Amazon.
In my living place there is a some system called received box. It is kind of safely box fixed at the entrance. Delivery people left it in safety box and set the pass word each time. They left the message note with the password and put it on our each mail box.
I found a note in my mail box and was to open the safety box.
When I was just try to open the safety box, old lady from the landlord family passed by and she tried to be kind to me and helped me. According to her, after we slide the note, the note should be popped out and the box will be open automatically . I have received some delivery however I did not that function. And she took the note from me and slide it some safety box. It has gone.
I really understand her kindness and appreciate and happy with her. So it is all right.
I need ask help my landlord , I mean her son.
However I have to leave home early morning and come back late everyday. I can not knock the door of my landlord early morning or late night.
So my book is still in the safety box for three days now...

The book club/THE BOOK THIEF

2008-06-02T05:53:00.000-07:00

I am attending a book club. For the next meeting, I am reading THE BOOK THIEF.
I think this book is quite elaborate. For example they use the old type of typing on chapter title and the page numbers so that we can feel some old time.
The book content itself I think I am quite interested in.
The story teller is an death angle. His way of talking is quite cool.
He find a girl called Liesel when he took her brother. We can see how Liesel lives thorough this story teller. His way of talking give us some cynical felling and distance however still I find some warmness from his talking. Liesel lives in the under Nazis circumstances.
Obviously she is not in the happy situation. Her parents were taken away and she is with her foster parents and they are not rich. However she is not completely unhappy. She have people who care about her in her life. I really thanks for God this even if it is the thing in the book.

I think I am so lucky.
My English is not really good however I can have enough ability to read books and that give me huge enjoyment.

'The Jane Austen Book Club'

2008-06-01T14:41:00.001-07:00

is the story of six women in a book club finding their lives and romances reflected in the six novels of English author Jane Austen. The film has been received fairly well through it's release and looks to be a fun afternoon out :)
I watched this move.
I think I should not be rude however I would like to be honest here.
In Tokyo there are many foreigners
I even said that they are so popular among us.
One thing we are not happy with them is that some of them really stink.
We Japanese can not even accept nice perfume.
So even good looking guy , if he stink, we can not be with.
I understand this is physical things and really not good to mention.
However at the same time, I think, someone should tell the truth.
At the theatre, I find a foreign guy who really stink and many people are suffered.
I could not tell him however I am sure if I am his friend, I would tell him and help him in the best way that does not hurt him.
I think I also should be really careful. My mother sometimes has bad mouth smell because of weak stomach. I am supposed to have similar body to her.

Concerning the move itself, I love this.
I have never read Jane Austin. According to a woman from Australia, in the English speaking area, mothers handed Jane Austin books to their daughters and all of them are supposed to know her books. I have never read and would like to read some.
In the move, all people are eventually happy in their own style all the marriage are preserved in a modest way. So it might not be such a dramatical ending but give us warm feeling like a cup of tea.

'The Jane Austen Book Club'

2008-06-01T04:53:00.000-07:00

Tennis

2008-06-01T04:52:00.000-07:00

I played tennis with my company people.
We played tennis from 10pm to 12pm. I think it is crazy.
I finish work 7 pm and after that I went to school from 7pm to 9:30 pm and joined the tennis.
This night my plane was so tight like proper career woman. When I was at the lecture, I felt tired and wanted to cancel the tennis.
I can not cancel at the last minute since it is so bad manner.
I wondered since I am a girl people might allow me that last minute cancel if I say something I have a headache so on. And I also think if I behave like that I can never be a people career woman.
This way, normally I think too much.
Some people believe I do not think at all and live in an innocent world.
I joined tennis.
I planed to go back home on the last train however I joined them drinking until 2 am.
I speak with people who I hardly speak at the office. We work on the project and if we are in the different service life, we do not have chance to communicate. Maybe we can see at the drinking machine. Since most of us are Japanese male and I can not recognize them well if I have never talked with them.
When we drink and talk, I find something.
Firstly, that people are rich except me.
What they are talking is on the quite different level from me.
Secondly it is nice to know people in the different service line. Things are so different and something I believe fixed are not really fixed thing and I can see more choice.

Elena

2008-05-31T04:04:00.001-07:00

Elena

There is a legendary girl called Elena in my company.
I have never seen her though since she quit before I join.

According to the legend, she always wore deep V-neck shirt when she made a presentation to her clients.
Most customer just stare her breasts and just nods to what she said.
She did this intentionally and people called this Elena's magic.

Do you think if I wear something more sexy I can be like Elena.
If I can ask more help and corporation from my clients because of my appearance, I think it is useful.
Elena was a cleaver girl I believe.
When we work, what is matter is just the outcome, so by any means, if we can get nice outcomes,
it means we have worked well.
I think Elena was a girl who understand this.

One thing, I can not understand in corporate life.
I think black stocking is a extremely sexual costume although it is formal to wear it.
I am quite sure I wear a deep V-neck shirt showing half of my bests, people would think I am mad although people are ok with my black stockings.
I think formal clothes should not be really sexual however it is not necessarily right.
I am old enough understand things however still I can not.

Partner meeting

2008-05-30T21:42:00.000-07:00

Partner meeting is an annal meeting with partners.
“Partners” are high positions in a companies.
We meet them one by one and they show us the next year's salary.
We do not really discuss but they just show it since my companies are quite Japanese.

This year, I've got the same as last year.
If they reduce my salary, I can not survive. So it is quite equal to reducing.

Last year I have many things at the company....
My performance was not good sadly.
This year they decided to grow me properly and allocate me nice place. I think it is such a warm decision. I really think I should appreciate their decision and work on it.
I always complain about Japanese society and angry about my fate that this society is the only place I can survive.

I think it is all right.
They care about me and did something for me to be comfortable to work.
So I started to learn and work properly.
I said thanks to them for their caring about various things and it was my realy thanks.
Last year, I had rather hard time in a not productive way.
This year I hope I will make much progress.
This is my dream to work properly and enjoy work and support myself and independent.
I think I am closer to that dream than before.
I still need to do lots of things such as study and work.
Because of today's meeting, I feel a bit, ,,, how to say,,,,I feel I need to be good to be here for more years. To be here is not easy.
This is my choice to be this kind of company.
I wanted to grow and I wanted to challenge even if it might be sometimes painful and tiring.
It is nicer than just sitting at boring company and wast my life, I thought.
I just started to work properly.
At my age, isn't it a bit late.
We can not choose life.

White man in Japan

2008-05-28T15:24:00.000-07:00

It is famous story.
White men can be popular in Japanese girls. Here it must be heaven for them.
One of my white men friends says that he was never so poplar in other places and he is quite happy now here because of plenty girls.
You can have beautiful Japanese girls even every day if you are a white man. (I do not know other rase.) Of course, those girls could be certain type of girls.
I heard this kind of story often. No surprising.

My another white male friend, he has ext ream good English. The only disadvantage is that he can only speak in a girls way. He only speak with some certain type of girls and now he can only speak like those girls.

I think it is unfair.

We Japanese girl are not treated well and not spoken to properly. Therefore we are so easy to be attracted or impressed by people who treat us well and speak to us properly.
And western men take advantage of that weakness.
To sum up, nobody treat us fairly.

Here I am writing in a exaggerated way. I know many nice western people.
So please do not take personal.

Book club

2008-05-28T15:15:00.000-07:00

I attended a bookclub.
It was my first time.
We have 9 pepople there. I could not finish the book however I think I should attend since I reserved and if I do not go, somone have to pay for my reservation.
So basically I attended there for food.
Food was really nice and the book club also.

The Book Thief.

My secret friend

2008-05-28T15:13:00.000-07:00

I have a secret friend.
One day he talked to me MSN.
I met him when I was in London two years ago. Unfortunately I do not really remember his face though. He said he think I need friends and he can be one.
It is really true.
I need friends.
Why he can know that? From my blog?
In my blog, I write quite honest way, I agree. However I still hide many things.
I need proper friends and I do not have many. I do not say that way openly. T hat is really shameful since not having friends must be that one's fault. Lack of nice character so on. I do not think I wrote that way before.

Here I have many people around me and they are so nice to me.
However something is missing always.
The reason I think that way might be my fault since people are so nice.
If I say what I think really is...

If I say more honest,
people might be interested in having sex with me however nobody is interested in what I think.
Sorry it is really exaggerated.
When I talked about this with my colleague, he said , it is still lucky if I am interested in that way
I agree. Better than nothing.

I want to people around me who care how I think or if I am happy or cry. I think caring people and objects are different. When we care objects we do not care if that objects are happy or not.
I am saying rude and bad since I am treated well however I really feel I am treated as an object.
So I needed friend like him.
Is he my imaginary creature?
I talk with him over internet more than half year now.

Good morning

2008-05-28T14:52:00.001-07:00

It is not really good morning.
I hate every morning.

When I wake up, I gradually realize where I am and why I am here.
I start to realize what I lost in my life which never come back.

I think I have lived this more than five years now,
I think I was not happy in the morning even when I was a child because of my
low blood presser.
So every morning, I put some effort to make me happy.
I need to listen my favourite music and I take worm bath with my favourite fruit tea.

My supervisor

2008-05-22T05:33:00.000-07:00

My supervisor

I've got a new supervisor and she takes care of me really well.
My mentor is her boss as well.
After I move to a new team, I think I feel settled more now. I am assigned to a new project and work properly now.
She is really pretty and her appearance imply that she is good at work and she really is.

This night, we attend some study meeting and she made a presentation for us and many lawyers.
(I am not a lawyer or an accountant.)
She looked so confident and cool.
I am quite sure, if she was a man, I would be in love with her.

I like this new team so far.
Previous team, I had many Japanese accountants and they are quite difficult.
Japanese accounts often have too much pride in themselves. When some problem happen, the people who just proud of themselves are just nothing. We need to work for the problems and in that sense, the license or any qualification means nothing and people are just equal.
I think having qualification is of course nice thing since that means that person have some knowledge and skill to certain level. That knowledge and skills can be a powerful tool toward the problem. Unfortunately in some cases, people do not really use that tool.

Something I do not like

2008-05-22T05:04:00.000-07:00

I am so rude however I would like to write what I think in my daily life here.
At my work, I moved to a new team and work with new people.
I am quite happy basically.
However there is a one man who I am not really happy with although he is nice.
He is a divorced man with a children who lives with his divorced wife.

He is nice however I can not have any affection to him.
I normally have affection to people even to people who are not popular among us though.
I still treat him nice since I think it is not fair since he is nice and do not harm me at least directly.

Why I dislike him? Disliking him makes me feel really bad. Am I a person who dislike people without reasonable reason?
Especially I do not like him when I find he looks at me when I do not notice and find it.
Please do not start in that way.
I am so small mind person.....however it is my real opinion..
I think I only need to communicate with him at work so I can just treat him nice in a usual way and I can ignore the feeling of disliking him.
I do not need to like him.

My work

2008-05-19T08:10:00.001-07:00

Actaully I am quite abundant.
I've got a new boss and place and it is just starting time.
So I hope thing will be busy soon.
My boss is busy person and can not really take care of him.
Yes, unfortunately I need people who can take care of me to work
otherwise I do not know what I should do at the moemnt.
Am I just a burden?
This thought makes me really crazy.
So I need to get out this situation soon.

Dots on my body

2008-05-19T08:09:00.002-07:00

I have some strainge dots on my body.
they are not really ichey though.
I am afraind they are caused by much stress and tiredness.
So I visited a doctor.
He said, he does not know what cause them.
I have had them alreay one month now.
I feel tired and even if I take a rest, I can not reciver well.
I think I need to take a trip at least for a week.

Curtain

2008-05-19T08:09:00.001-07:00

I've got curtains in my room.
Untill then I live without curtains.
The period without curtain made me realize curtains are so importaint in our life.
We can not turn of light since people can see you from outside.
At night I spent without light so that people can not see me.

My curtain is brown.
My sofa-bed is white.

This is the decision I made.
I mean I deicded to have things in my room either white or brown.

My mentor

2008-05-19T08:08:00.000-07:00

Recently I have one thing which makes me deeply depressive. My company have a mentor system.
My mentor quits the company and I've got a new one.
The former mentor , he is now to be an independent account.
He was kind to me and I really appriciate him.

This thinkgs what made me depressive is he never reply to my E-mail.
I believed him closer person to me.
Not only him. I have been in this company for a year and several people quit during this one year.
Most of them do not reply to me.
Some of them hate the company and do not want to communicate with any from this company.
However my mentor was not like that.
So I expect him to be in touch with me.
Maybe I am too attached to him.
In the working place, people are often too aggressive and pull people's legs to survive.
We need to be cleave in a political way.
Unfortunately I am to stupid to survive here.
He alway help me and listen to me. Sometimes he could not do anything with my problem and
soemtiems he gave me nice adovices and sometiems he did something toward them.
This way we build some relationship and I really like him.
Maybe I am too easily have affection to people since I do not have many who is kind to me
besides me.
I think I will be all right after a few month later, and will forget about him.
Until then I think I will carry a bit pain.

I also think this way.
Becasue of him, I am still at this company and working and studying in this field.
I should put more effort since my current position is not only from my ability but other
peopl's help such as my mentor.

Nobe-yokocho(Drunken-people-town-corner)

2008-05-19T08:07:00.000-07:00

There is a famous area called Nonbe-yokocho.(Drunken-people-town-corner)
Last Friday, I visited with my friend and this was my first time.
It was relly impressive place. We can find many small pubs at this area.
Firstly the places are not just small but too small.
Inside of the pubs are like crowded train. I think it is ok for winter but not for summer.
Secondly pepople there are open-speaking Japanese mainly mid age men, called Ojisan.

I think some dacades ago, Japanese culture must have had this warm stomosphere.
Sometimes I am mad since nobody speak with me propely.
I tought this is becasue of stupid Japaense culture.
The time there made me a bit different toward Japanese society. We still have such a nice culture
at least in this small area.

computer/Firmware

2008-05-13T13:16:00.001-07:00

In computing, firmware is a computer program that is embedded in a hardware device, for example a microcontroller
As its name suggests, firmware is somewhere between hardware and software.
The most famouse firmware is Bios.
This is enbeded in a small chip on the motherborad.
When we boot the computer, Bios detect which recognizes and initiate component hardware (such as hard disk, floppy and optical disk drives).

firmware
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Firmware
bios
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/BIOS
Do you think if I get to now computer science one by one, in the end, I can be strong in this field?

Thai festival

2008-05-11T02:31:00.001-07:00

Thai festival
I went to the Thai festival.
So many Thai food and products were there.

http://www.thaifestival.net/

Mother's day

2008-05-11T02:26:00.001-07:00

Mother's day
Today is the mother's day
I love my mother much same as other daughters in the world.
My mother is a housewife and she did not seem to enjoy being one housewife, I am so scared to be a wife.
At the moment, I do not need to worry though ;)
women are so special in general. When they smile, the world looks happy an meaningful place and when they cry, world becomes dark meaningless place.
I am straight however I think women are special in this way.
My mother is from south part of Japan and her smile is so bright and impressive. However after she moved to Tokyo from her home town because of my father's transfer, she had difficulty for many years. In Tokyo, people behave in a different manner and do not really show what they think.
She always ask me to make her happy in non-said way. And I felt burden for it.
She needed someone who she can depended on and that should be my father not me.
Nobody can make people happy who do not try by themselves. Women are weak and being week is not bad since this gives the space for men to help women.
However I am so scared of being a weak women.
So I love my mother and at the same time I hate her.
Mother's figure has some meaning to daughters since their figures gives us some idea about our future and how people can be happy so on.
I just sent her flower and card and did not go back home.

Tokyo Linux Users Group

2008-05-11T02:02:00.000-07:00

Tokyo Linux Users Group
http://tlug.linux.or.jp/
This is a technical meeting I sometime attend.
I attend this last Saturday.
As you can see from the name, it is a meeting who love Linux.
I am not strong however I strong love computer and Linux.

This meeting is composed of non Japanese although I can find some including me.
This time, two groups deliver the presentation.
I think around twenty people attended and mainly male.

(1)"Test Driven Development with Eclipse" by Josh Glover
Do you have any idea about TDD? This is
Test-Driven Development (TDD) is a software development technique consisting of short iterations where new test cases covering the desired improvement or new functionality are written first, then the production code necessary to pass the tests is implemented
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Test-driven_development
The presentation was with the performance with TDD in Java.
I have some basic idea about Java and object language however I was so lost what the presenter was
doing.

(2)"TOMOYO Linux Overview" by TOMOYO Linux Project.
This presentation was give by NTT Docomo people. TLUG is casually technical meeting and people do not really carry company name when they attend however this time they gave us their presentation more official way.
TOMOYO Linux is access control. I heard.
As far as I understand they embedded the source code of TOMOKO Linux to Ubuntu.
We have two time of access control. One is SE Linux and the other is TOMOYO Linux.
TOMOYO Linux is the access control preformed by userland process.

I do not really get the content however I love this meeting.
Firstly, sometimes I lose my passion to the computer in busy life however it revive my passion to it somehow. I would like to grow my knowledge and skill and would like to participate in this meeting more. This is one of my dream.
Secondly I like the atmosphere there. Engineers has that kind of atmosphere often.
They are the creators and often have some warm atmosphere and that remind me my school day at engineering University.

Underwear

2008-05-08T13:23:00.000-07:00

I was drying my clothes at the veranda at nigh.
When I woke up in the next morning, I find out some of my clothes is missing including my
underwear.
The wind was really strong that nigh and I should have been more cautious.
When I looked down from the veranda, I find my clothes in the ground floor garden. I tired to take it
from out side of the garden however I could not make it.
I needed to ask help the resident on this floor to get in.
In Tokyo, neighbours do not communicate and I hardly know who live on the ground floor especially
it is not my floor, my floor is the third.
I knocked one of the door on the ground floor and I find one guy coming out and I explained.
He was kind enough let me go though his room to get in the garden.
I was able to collect my clothes including my underwear.
Since I do not have many chances to get into other people's room in the same building, I
was a bit curious. I looked quite much for that small seconds.
I found out ground floor residence has basement floor and I found out this guy seemed to be a
lover of bicycles and seemed to live alone.
His ground floor room was occupied with a big dinning table.
I thought he might live with his family however I can see there are only shoes for this guy at the door.
To sum up, I was able to collect my clothes and my neighbour was kind and seemed to quite silent.
and I was a bit rude to look at his room using this event.

computer/network layers

2008-05-07T20:25:00.000-07:00

Here I would like to write about network layer.
I LOVE somputer things althouhg I am not strong.
However I belive I can develop my knbowledge step byp.
Revently I have learn about network layer from my British nerd friend
and would like to share this with other friends.

There are many protocols in the family of TCP/IP such as ICMP,FTP,DHCP,SSL,UDP.
Those protocols work on networking.

OSI 7layers model of networking
These are imaginary layers and we can understand how the layers work.
Those layers are independent.

7 Application layer (FTP, SMTP,POP3,IMAP)
6 Presentation layer (HTML)
5 Session layer (LOGINS)
4 Transport layer (TCP, UDP)
3 Network layer (IP,ICMP)
2 Data-Link layer (ETHERNET)
1 Physical layer (NETWORKING DRIVER)

Tip to remember: Please Do Not Throw Soussage Pizza Away

TCP: Transmition Control Protcol

UDP: User Datagram Protocol
unreliable and best effort

The book club

2008-05-05T08:27:00.001-07:00

I was to attend a book club last week however I attend my mentor's farewell party and could not attend the book club.
Since I was looking forward to it, it is a bit disappointing.
Never mind, I can attend the next one.
The next meeting, we are to read The Omnivore's Dilemma: A Natural History of Four Meals by Michael Pollan

My new boss

2008-05-05T08:26:00.001-07:00

I've got a new boss.
At the moment , I am not give much work from him yet. I wish he will.
I had some chance to talk with him at a party. It was really nice conversation.
What he said was quite impressive and I think I will keep that in my mind for good.
I asked him what he expect from me. His answer was that I managed to solve the problems in any situation by thinking logically. He does not really expects me some knowledge or skill.
Some people are just proud of their positions or qualification and do not take responsibility toward the situation. For example, imagine we are diving in the deep sea, and some problem happens.
We really need to solve the problem to survive. In that situation, being proud of a position or qualification means nothing.

I remember my Suffolk father said similar to me.
He said people have to work to earn love and trust. Sometime people believe they deserve to be loved because of their position and get angry it they are not loved enough. Ex. A husband believes he deserves to be loved by his wife just because of his position.
He talked about this in front of a fireplace drinking wine. The time there was just like a film.

Now I am in Tokyo.

My mentor

2008-05-05T08:25:00.000-07:00

My mentor at my company said that I should consult an executive to discuss about my work since obviously I am not happy with my work. He said that if I do nothing there is no chance I can be at the company. So it is worth to try. The situation might be improved. It was a bit hard to talk with an executive since I feel just insecure.
Actually my body was quite exhausted because of weak immune system coming from the stress in these day's situation.
However I did my best since I really want to work there properly and I wan to develop.
The executive asked me if I think I am for this work or not. I said to him that I can not say if I am for this work or not however I can say if I like this work or not. I like my work itself and I have will to improve.
So I never find myself fit for anything. So I just choose my life not from the point if my ability or character is for this or not but if I want to do this or not. And I believe God gives me enough ability to do what I want. I never really feel the short of my ability however there are something I needed to put much effort to obtain.
What is important for me is to be given the work and the environment to work. Other things I do not care. So I do not write in detail what were things which I am not happy with so on.
The executive allocates me a new place to work in the same department.
I am not really sure if it works well yet though. I think my mentor did much work for me to this happen. He is quitting the work to have his own business therefore whatever he did he had nothing
to lose, once he said. I really appreciate his caring and work.
Wish me good luck!

Together

2008-05-05T08:24:00.001-07:00

My computer got a virus recently.
I am just so stupid. One of my friends who hardly talks to me said on MSN that he found my picture on the internet and would like to show me and receive the file from him.
This is how I've got a virus.
Just after I received e file, I notice that something wrong however it was too late.
If you are the person who have seen my MSN did something wrong to you, sorry for that although my of you are cleave enough to ignore that.
Same as computer, I've got a virus on my body.
I've got some red spots on my body and they are quite painful. I heard that when people have stress, often people have this symptom although this red spots are caused by virus.
I was not really happy at work so there is not wonder I've got this disease.
I think I am so with my computer.